Hi ~
Newcomer here. Felt a need to reach out. I spent so much of my life feeling just like Mojo is feeling right now. And just like him/her, I completely resisted the notion of looking into medication. As a person who, with the help of a 12-step program, has retained sobriety for some 30 years now, I felt, surely I should be able to just breathe this or pray this away. But I just couldn't seem to do it on my own, so consulted physician to see if we could come up with a plan.
She suggested trying Zoloft (have it in generic too). At my request we tested it out beginning with 25 mg. When I was comfortable that it wasn't harming me (I hate medicine), we sent to 50 mg. and finally arrived at 100 mg. which seems to be just right for my symptoms.
What I have found is it has erased almost all of the anxiety I would experience prior to any type of event -- also alleviated a lot of my unfounded phobic fears of enclosed spaces, heights, edges. With the medication, in addition to a conscious shift in my head to the fact that it's okay to "let go", I'm doing a lot better with life than I was.
Please do take care ... I wish you peace.