A lot of my OCD triggers are sexual in nature. I am TERRIFIED of sexually endangering a child, because I love children so much and I would never want to hurt them. Today I remembered when I was 13 or 14 I masturbated in a bathroom of a home that I was babysitting in. I almost can't remember it being 10 years ago... but I am so disgusted by it. I am almost certain the kids were sleeping, and I never hurt anyone but it makes me feel like I did. I know I can't judge my NOW self for my THEN actions but for some reason I feel that I need validation that I can let this go. I didn't even do anything wrong.. right? I would never do this now, but back then I was so sexually curious and a lot more ballsy than I am now. Ugh.