I'll try to keep this brief.
Early last year i stopped taking citalopram, without asking the doctor. i'd been on it for many years. i was sick of everything, tiredness, lack of sleep, it not helping me overcome anxiety and probably many other things that might not have even been down to citalopram.
For the first few months i felt good, then had a crisis. i told my doctor the pills hadn't been working hoping he'd prescribe something else. he up'd citalopram from 20mg to 30mg. i didn't tell him i had stopped taking it.
I started myself back on 10mg and just got on with life. every week or two i'd feel down and my rumination/chatterbox/constant thinking happened everyday. i didn't increase to 20 or 30.
This year. still on 10mg. still constant thinking every day but not hugely anxious or depressed, just the feeling down (feeling everything turns bad etc) once in awhile. then i decided to up to 20mg and my head just went crazy, i just couldn't control my thoughts, feeling panicky etc. thinking stupid things, being hugely melodramatic etc i stopped taking it altogether the next day i felt normal again. still with chatterbox but i didn't feel everything was turning to crap.
2 weeks on and i'm not sure what to do. put myself back on citalopram at 10mg, 20mg 30mg? try and just get on with life and try and cope with chatterbox (which really gets me down some days) or confess to the doctor and see what he says?
Thanks for any advice.