Hello NMP people

I've been posting here and there but nobody has responded.

I must be doing something wrong.

Perhaps these posts are just not entertaining enough...or self-indulgent.
I don't know what else I can do other than try to express how I'm feeling through words.

I've had another difficult day. Phoned up my Mum and started crying. No personal contact with anyone.

Really depressed because I can't seem to make up my mind or commit myself to anything.

Angry with some people. Mental Health Service Users are not the one big cohesive unit I'd hoped for. The Day Centre I occasionally attend is chaos controlled by an inadequate quota of staff. Everyone seems to be stepping on each other for the most trivial of reasons.

I've started thinking about suicide again. An acquaintance who was participating in a Dramatherapy Group which i briefly attended, topped himself earlier this year. This brings up some uncomfortable thoughts.

The group and the fool of a woman running it were s***. It makes me bloody angry when I come across so-called professionals who turn out to be inadequate and unqualified to handle the dynamics of such activities.

Can anyone understand or relate to any of this?

Thanks for reading