Im new here, 47 and know i suffer from health anxiety. However, every time i have a fear it does turn out to be something.
Example, headaches, pressure in my head....feared a brain tumour....and it turned out to be a pineal cyst.
Lower abdominal pain with ribbon stools....feared colon cancer, turned out being diverticulitis.
Throat upper gastric pains, feared stomach cancer, turned out to be a large hiatus hernia.
I also have fatty liver and have back pains that im sure are due to anxiety.
So i know i do tend to assume the worst.
There is one cancer that ive always been frightened of getting as it is almost certainly terminal with only 1% cure and thats pancreatic cancer.
So we come to my latest worry.
Around 4 months ago i felt a stomach pain below my left rib. I also noticed my back pain was worse than usual and in the middle of my back (its normally my lower back or neck)
The stomach pain felt different. Ive had pains in my lower left with diverticulitis and also much higher in my chest area with my gastritis and hiatus hernia. This was mid stomach.
I also noticed that the pains hurt more when i ate and also when i layed down.
So i visited my gp who gave me the usual ppi medication that did nothing.
This lasted a month and i noticed my stools were lighter than i'd even seen.
I googled my symptoms which all pointed to my dreaded pancreatic cancer.
My gp arranged an abdominal ultrasound which was ok except they couldnt see my pancreas due to stomach gas.
One night my pains we so bad and my wife noticed i looked slightly yellow. So we went to a&e and i was admitted as my billirubin was high.
I was given a ct scan which came back normal and my gilberts syndrome was blamed for my jaundice. By this time i had lost nearly a stone.
Since my ct scan came back normal my gp will not send me for any other scan even though we dont know what is causing my pain.
So im now paying to see a private consultant. She arranged for me to have a stool elastase which also came back normal.
So its now 4 months since i first noticed my pains. My back hurts more, my stomach pain seems to have moved a little more central but hurts more. I am having trouble sleeping as the pain is keeping me awake. I have tried lots of stomach and ppi medication and nothing works.
I know this is bad and i dont think its my anxiety causing this.
My private consultant has now ordered an mrcp as it supposed to be good at seeing the pancreas.
I just have this feeling the ct scan has missed a tumour. Its been 3 months from the ct scan and im in so much more pain than i was.
My gp still thinks its anxiety but pancreatic cancer is hard to see on a ct scan so can easily be missed and im worried its spread by now.
Shep