Re: Keep thinking about how I wish I were gone, help plz (tw: s-word)
I suffer from depression and I know how you feel. The news doesn't get me down as much as the idea that I'm worthless and my life is hopeless and it won't ever get better. There are many times I wish I wasn't brought into the world or just have a nagging feeling that someday I'll be backed into a corner with no options and have to, um, "exit".
I think you're probably okay if you're not making plans or having serious feelings, but if you're not already getting help/support for you mental health it would be good to do so.
For me, these dark feelings come in waves - sometimes I feel great, other times not at all. I think that's kind of just the nature of the beast, unfortunately.
I'm sorry I couldn't be of more help, but I understand.
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