After being afraid to go to sleep, I awaken in full blown fear. Then it’s like all the symptoms, almost one at a time, have to fire up as blood rushes through. I can feel I’m still tired, but utterly afraid to try. It’s getting worse every day. I have filled my prescription for Lexapro but am afraid to take it- equal parts fear it won’t work and equal parts it is copping out or will permanently change me. Is this what my life will now always be?