Hi all,
I am a new member but have visited the site for years which has helped me a lot with health anxiety but over the last few months I have suffered terribly.
I have been married for 14 years, have 3 kids (age 13 10 9) but had a one night stand about 8.5 years ago. For the last 20 years I have been terrified of hiv and aids but have now convinced myself I have it, but worse still infected my wife and younger children who were breast feeding at the time of my one night stand - which was with a woman from work and I cannot remember if I used protection. I am not in contact with her but saw she is married and has had 2 children in the last 6 years and worry that she might have caught it from him and given it to me.
I don’t really have any symptoms, neither have my wife or kids, but I have noticed a white area on the side of my daughters tongue which looks like oral hairy leukoplakia but the dentist and doctor both said it is a normal variation of the tongue.
I have, for the last few months spent hours a day looking for info on the internet and today I have spent the whole day and I am terrified. I cannot talk to anyone about it.
I am at the end of my tether - please help.