What happened?
What happened to me? I used to be so good at trying new things. Yes, they made me nervous, but that never used to stop me. As I kid I went on residential trips abroad, went to sleepovers, joined clubs. As a teenager I went to parties, applied for jobs, met new people, even moved to a whole other part of the country, by myself, for college.
But now that college is over (2 years over), everything is scary. Sending an email is scary. Driving to work is scary. The prospect of changing jobs, moving out, doing further study, a career, a relationship... it's all scary. I've never been met with such mental blocks before.
I have my life goals. But actually trying to achieve them feels impossible. Literally impossible. No one gets that.
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~ The world has ended for me many times and began again in the morning ~