how many of you HA suffers are afraid of dying

[dally]

I'm not afraid of being dead, but I am so scared of a long lingering death.
I have varying degrees of agoraphobia, which when I'm feeling sick, always becomes a major panic attack. Hysteria, vomiting, diarrhoea, shaking, etc.
How would I be able to go to a hospital for treatment,pain relief, nursing care?
I think about it EVERY time I am I'll. and I never see a senario that will allow me to "let" medical professionals help me die.
But
Worse than this is the distress my "panic behaviour" would do to my family having to watch my horrendous departure!

[Jimmy28]

My best friend's brother died a month ago. It was totally out of the blue. He just never woke up. He was perfectly healthy. Because of this, my anxiety is back and I have panic attacks almost every day, which sucks because I used to be so much better. So now I'm right at the beginning. I fear death so much.

[Carnation]

I just watched a film and strangely there was a line that made me look up.
"I am afraid of dying because it is something I have no control over".

[RoseEve]

I also fear a long, painful death or just the fear of knowing the end is near. I also fear watching my kids cry because I'm dying. I don't fear instant death at all.

[Angelika]

Yes. I often think that my health anxiety is actually because I have this horror of dying. I've tried to think why - I mean, we can't avoid it. I know I dread leaving my children, and also sometimes I just think - 'I LIKE it here! I don't want to leave.' Then I just get this - usually at night - thought that I just cannot imagine NOT being here. I mean, I know I won't know about it, but just the idea that one day I will not exist, is terrifying. That is why I think I have health anxiety about every little thing.

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I just watched a film and strangely there was a line that made me look up.
"I am afraid of dying because it is something I have no control over".

Ah, yes. That too. I think many of us have a horror of things we cannot control. I think this underpins much of anxiety. Not sure how we could change that.