Im feeling so depressed because of these panic attacks, they r ruling my life and r on my mind from the moment i wake up until the moment i go to sleep. I have lost everthing because of them, my job, my confidence, my friends. my partner left me to work abroad and doesnt care. im so lonely and sit all day crying on my bed because no matter how hard i try, or whatever meds i take or therepy i have, it wont go away. I just want someone i can talk to that understands but no one does. All my so called friends have great lives and dont seem bothered as long as they r o.k they dont care. I used to be such a happy, talented girl but im just a shadow of my former self. My appetites gone, sex drives gone i dont get pleasure out of anything anymore. i feel so alone. I just want a big hug but because my boyfriends left me and my family dont understand im just getting worse. sorry for the long thread but im so down and cannot stop crying.