Originally Posted by
beckssss
Hi there,
I have been having intusive thoughts about suicide for a while now, for the last few weeks they have been terrible and Im finding it hard to deal with. I don't really understand them because if I really wanted to commit suicide then surely I would just do it and not worry that im actually going to do it. I worry that the anxiety and thoughts are going to get so bad that I will act on the suicidal thoughts as a way of release. it really really terrifies me that Im going to act on them or that they will never go away. I get a feeling that comes out of the blue like everything is pointless and that I may aswell kill myself. if im on a highrise building i panic that im going to jump...if I see a belt it triggers the same kind of thought etc etc etc. I have confided in my partner about my thoughts and he says that I wont act on it, but maybe it will all come to much for me and I will actually do it...im so scared :(