Ive caught gonnarhea im married panic attacks so bad

[BizzyLizzy]

He is completely blanking me, ive just got a new job, he has.been no support at all, in fact my first week he was blanking me all togther, he makes me drink to try and block him out, which he uses against me, this om was a safe place for me, I felt safe with him, now this, he has just taken my youngest out , I feel so bad for her, but she better off out then watching me cry all the time

[Bigboyuk]

I think emotionally you are in a bad place at the moment talk through the options with your counsellor as there are options that's the good thing. Could you stay at the om's place? or with your mum/dad? Till you decide what to do!! So who has taken your youngest out the hubby or this om?

[BizzyLizzy]

My hubby has my little one, I dont want to leave the children, I have to go home

[Bigboyuk]

Of course and that's understandable but you need to think seriously your next step other wise you are going to be in a rut for ever I hope this wont be the case I feel your pain as I too have been abused by ppl in my life so understand where you are at. ATB

[BizzyLizzy]

Thank.you big boy uk, om went.to.walk in today he is all treated now he gets results in a week, wish I had gone with him now.ffs

[Bigboyuk]

You are welcome Bizzy You say he is all treated now as in he did have gonnareha ? Or you mean he has been tested and awaiting results? Are you clear or haven't you had tests I know its only 3 pages long but that's how bad my short term memory is ahh so my apologies if you have had tests. ATB

[BizzyLizzy]

No he got treated as he said he had sex with me and ive been tested as positive so they.treated him as a precaution, his results as if he carried it will come thru next week as he did a urine test x

[Speranza]

You need to wait - apart from anything else, if the ons guy is clear, then you have obviously caught it from your husband.

Which would change quite a lot, wouldn't it...

[Bigboyuk]

Also are you tested and have received treatment as yet? ATB

[BizzyLizzy]

I was tested on the 24th got the reults back as positive for gon last thursday the earliest they can get me in fro treament is tomoz at 5

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Im pretty sure its not from my husband, he never goes anywhere !