I have had panic attacks since i was 8 or 9 and now i am almost 20. I have tried to beat Anxiety without medicine, but it seems that I just cant. University started back up again and my anxiety is really bad right now. Sitting in class is such a struggle, it makes me want to cry because of the hell i put myself through. I fear of dropping dead, mostly with heart problems. I always fear of having a weak heart, and that im just going to drop dead. And i fear dying near people i don't know. THat is why i fear leaving my house. Life is getting really hard because im not functioning normally. I fear leaving behind my friends and family. Its just unbearable