I have had anxiety and depression for since I was 18 but have had a bad setback in May which caused me to go off sick from work. I was breaking down in tears every day as I was stressed about a holiday I had booked going on a coach tour in Europe, eventually I ended up cancelling the holiday.
Since then I have had a lot of ups and downs but every month or so I have been having a huge setback. Just when I am feeling a bit better and think about going back to work I have so much anxiety that I end up really depressed again where I feel hopeless and that I will never get better. I am due to go back on 10th October and I am feeling exactly the same now as I did before I went off work. I feel like I can see it coming that I will go back and feel like this again and won't be able to cope or I will either be sacked or have to quit.
Anxiety and depression have ruined my life, all I have done today is cry. I went for a walk with my mum and dad and my mind wouldn't stop racing I actually started crying while I was out. Every time I have a setback, it knocks another bit of my confidence off from ever getting better. I don't want my life to be like this forever. I started a new anti depressant a week ago but I am loosing hope that it is going to work. I just feel really hopeless.