I have anxiety and in the past i have been in fear of getting schitzophrenia.
I cant trust (believe) in what i see.
for example i see a fly fliying around my face then suddenly i get a strange "what if" its not real.
And the only way i know for sure is to kill it right infront of me,
I dont like to kill things but i had to do this because i think i am imgaining it or seeing things that are not there
The reasen for all of this is. somtimes at night with the lights on, i see a fly flying, i follow it with my head then it just disapears someware right infront of me.
Which ALLWAYS leaves me terrofied and confused and axnious because i keep questioning myself and guessing
like
was it real?
Where did it go? - where is it?
I should have catched it
Am i seeing things
It looked so real - it must have been a real fly
Why does it have to be me
Im soo scared
I cant find it anywhere
Im insane/ Mental
Yes it was real/ No it isnt real
I get all of these thoughts in my head.
I even got a tourch to go searching for the fly because again i dont know if its real or not.
But what i do know is that i have Anxiety and a massive fear of Schitzophrenia
Is this normal aswell in Anxiety
Has anyone ever had this expirence
I would love to hear your stories
Thank You