Hi people I am in desperate need of some help/advice. I have suffered with panic and anxiety all of my adult life, it started with the stomach bubbles, hand wringing, over heating and a kind of feeling of not being real along with paranoia that I was going mad and that people were looking at me etc, I got it under control with 20mg seroxat daily and never really had any major issues again, just the occasional feeling of the stomach bubbles. Three years ago, 12 years after starting on seroxat I became pregnant with twins, I took the seroxat throughout pregnancy on the advice of my doctor who felt the risk to me outweighed the risk to my babies, anyhow 8 months later I went into labour and gave birth sadly to one healthy child and one stillborn. Five days after birth I developed your classic pnd symptoms alongside obvious grief, my world came crashing down around me and all my earlier anxiety symptoms returned, my medication was increased to 30mg of seroxat and after two weeks I felt able to cope again. I got on with life for 18 months and felt happy, then the symptoms once again returned, my medication was again increased to 40mg and two weeks later I felt normal again. Now 6 months on I'm once again going through panic and utter misery because of the constant anxiety, I feel that I am falling apart, that I am going to go mad and that I will be this way forever. My doctor has now prescribed pregabalin 75mg twice daily which was working fine until he said that I needed to reduce the seroxat, I started reducing it by 10mg to 30mg a fortnight ago and didn't really notice much effect but in the last couple of days I've started to feel frightened and very sad again and on the edge of breakdown. I want to know if anyone can recommend anything, I'm having cbt which doesn't really seem to help me, I just want to be medicated and feel normal again and I don't want to be in this state any more. Please help.