I'm sorry to harp on and on and on about the stupid obsession with my throat. Yes it's been 7 months now and STILL I go on, the symptoms different to the beginning.
My question is... over the past few weeks I've started to feel a lot better. My anxiety is no where near as bad as it was, I've not had a panic attack for a month and a half or maybe more, I can go out without things feeling worse so I consider myself well on the way to recovery.... but then... I have to speak.
From the moment I wake up until the moment I go to bed I have a feeling in my throat and I can actually see the part of my throat that is causing me discomfort, it looks fine! No pain in my throat (other than muscles). If I don't have to talk very much through the day I can distract myself enough for it not to be a problem, even going out. I have recently stopped being so worried about gagging and am a bit more relaxed about the whole thing. It's just the dangly bit and the 2 flaps of skin either side of it, it feels really tight as if you had a muscle spasm but is it possible to actually tense your dangly bit?? Is it a muscle? When I speak, even with family, it feels as if I can't shape words properly because I can feel the dangly bit dragging on the back of my tongue which, when I was nervous made me feel like heaving. Even though my anxiety levels seem very low, my physical throat symptoms don't seem to be MUCH better, I just feel like I've accepted that it feels uncomfortable. The only thing that gets me on edge and makes me feel a bit anxious now is when I have to speak and can feel this dangly bit dragging at the back of my throat.
I'm wonder if it will be one of the last symptoms to go and I still wonder if there is really something 'wrong' down there...
Just wanted to air that for comments...
Thanks for reading my ramble AGAIN,
Mark