Is it really all in my head?

[072106]

So, I'm back again, big suprise there.

I'm really sick and tired of this.

I dont know if i'm just feeling sorry for my self because no one else will, or if i really do have a medical condition.

I just feel so stupid at times.

Like.. I'm here, but i'm not here.
I can see things, but i'm not cogniazant towards it.
My jaw it always clenched and I just can't relax my face.
Everything around me is like a blur..
Theres a piece of me that I think is missing, and I'm having a tough time trying to find it.

I haven't been able to sleep much, so that might be a possible reason why i'm experiencing this.

I feel like i'm in a total brain fog.
I can concentrate well at school, but when i'm at home it's like omg.

I just can't let my hair down and have a good time anymore
with out the constant thoought of omg what if i pass out, and no one does anything.

I just dont know, i mean everyday is something new.
I just got over the cancer scare.. now i'm just afraid i'm going mentally challenged because i feel so wrotten, or a brain tumor (when i had a CT scan in Jan to rule that out).

I just dont know anymore.
I want to be happy.

[NoPoet]

I just got over the cancer scare.

I think I'd feel like crap if I thought I had cancer! You are stressed to the limit, the feeling of disconnection is your brain's way of protecting you from overload. Your feelings of fear are trapping you in that mode.

There is nothing abnormal or wrong with you at all, you just sound stressed out of your mind. Your cancer scare is over, just think about that for a second: everything is all right.