Is this Depersonlization or something worse?

[Matt89]

It's really hard to explain this, but here's my best shot at it -

- Like I don't understand reality (really bad, anyone relate?)
- Short Term memory is bad
- Things don't feel real
- Feel like I'm not actually here
- When I wake up in the morning I feel really bad, like I don't know where I am.
- When I do something, It's like it's not me doing it.
- Feeling I don't exist, like I'm dead and just living a dream.
- When doing something I used to do I don't get any enjoyment out of it
- When doing something its like I've never done it before.

It's like I've forgot how to live, I don't know anything. Help!

I keep question everything. Why are we here? What's the meaning of life? All this weird stuff. What the hell is happening to me :( I've gone Mad.

[doddy]

Matt,

youve most definately not gone mad nor willl you, do you think mad people question why they are here or the meaning of life?? nope, they just go mad.

What you are feeling is as you say DP/DR nothing more nothing less. My cbt therapist once described this as being like a pair of binoculars, because we have focused the binocluars so much on ourselves and how we feel and what we think its almost like we have blinked ourselves from reality hence the strange feelings. I hated hated hated the dp/dr but it goes, as your anxiety lifts a little you feel more in touch with the world again, and as this happens you start to enjoy all the things you once did, perhaps with even more passion as now you dont take them for granted. dont fight it to go, just let it be there but dont be so impressed withit, people go out on a saturday night and pay fortunes on drugs to get that feeling!!!!!!!!!! lol...not mocking as i know how bad it feels but dont worry about it, it goes.

it passes, trust me, ive been there.

take care my friend.

andy

[kirgray]

Matt

If youve gone mad then Ive joined you as I get nearly everything youve described there so can totally relate-its such a weird horrible feeling.

I too have questioned whats the meaning of life and what are we doing here-its just our brains trying to adjust and get away from the panic.

Hang on in there pm me if you want to chat.

HUG Kirsty

[desperate]

Hi Matt,

What you list there happens to me on a daily basis.

It is hard not to worry about it though especially when you start thinking weird things about the world....like i think all these people going about jobs and stuff why are they doing that? The whole way the world works is a mystery to me i tell you!

Are you getting any help at all?

Feel free to PM me anytime!

First Anxiety...then panic attacks...now GAD and depression...now working on a better future!

[Matt89]

"It is hard not to worry about it though especially when you start thinking weird things about the world....like i think all these people going about jobs and stuff why are they doing that? The whole way the world works is a mystery to me i tell you!"

YES,

That's exactly what I think as well.

Like you don't understand the world, why things are the way they are?

Thanks for the replies.

I'm seeing a Psych who says it's a symptom of anxiety, but it's really hard to explain to him.

I remember this all starting about a month ago after a panic attack one night, it's been there really ever since, even though now I'm not actually having panic attacks.

I just want this to pass..

[desperate]

Hi Matt,

Glad to know I'm not alone!!

Glad to hear you are getting some help as well, it is really distressing getting these sort of thoughts I know but i guess the fact that we know it is kinda 'wrong' is a good thing in a way.

It is also difficult to accept that is it anxiety especially when you don't get many other symptoms sometimes. I had PAs for about 8 months i think and ever since them i've felt like this even though i am not actually experiencing a traditional PA as such, it's more kinda always there a bit.

Makes getting about quite difficult and things.

First Anxiety...then panic attacks...now GAD and depression...now working on a better future!

[desperate]

Anyone any suggestions on how you stop this kinda thing?

First Anxiety...then panic attacks...now GAD and depression...now working on a better future!

[mumof4]

that used to happen to me when my attacks were bad but since ive gotten better a few months ago ive had nothing.

[alexis]

Hi I agree a lot of us have suffered or are suffering this to some degree, it does get better, stay positive and get all the help offered, take care, love Alexis,xxx

Alexis

[Matt89]

Argh.. This is getting worse.

It's like I don't understand anything about anything!

Anyone get me?

I'm so confused.