ive been having a real hard time lately since this i got depression/derealization/depersonalization. i feel so lost and confussed about everything. especially life. i feel as though im lost inside my own self. i dont know if im going to ever get better, right now and for the past two months i dont feel like i could get better. nothing makes any sense to me. the doctor put me on anti-depressants and lorozapam, the anti-depressants sort of just blocks my mind from thinking or feeling any emotions. but without them i contantly have never negative thoughts about life, not nessessarly my life but life as a whole. i dont even know anymore if im in the state of derealization/depersonalization, i cant tell the difference between reality and that. i feel hopeless and useless in so many ways, and that life has no purpose what so ever. before i loved living and i was the happyest person, but now everyday i feel i have to convience my self to live. i dont know how much more i can take and whats keeping me going right now, is just the hope that all this will go away and ill be back to normal, even though i really dont believe it. i feel like i lost the real me, and who i am and what goes on in my mind all day long is something else. the doctor told me that the depression was caused by the derealization/depersonalization disorder. and at first he didnt tell me that i had that disorder he said it was just depression, and i was soconfussed because i felt like it was more then that. i felt like i was the only person in the world that had this, until he finally told me what it was. i read all that i could about it, and evrything was exactly how i felt. it was a relief to know that i wasnt the only one to feel this, and reading these stories from others somehow makes me feel better and gives me a little sense of hope that il be better soon. no one that i know understands anything about the way im feeling which doesnt help at all, and i dont really think that my doctor knows to much about it either. this has been the worse thing that has evr happened to me, and i think i just need people that are going through the same thing to talk to, i dont know if it will help, but i think its worth a try. if anyone knows how to get rid or at least lesen these symtoms please let me know. thank u