snowgoose
21-08-11, 20:22
Not a pity post honest .........just need to offload friends :blush:
I am jealous today .not a nice emotion but I am .
I havent dealt with my long standing anxiety well at all over the years so naturally my lads now enjoy holidays ,meals out ,confidances etc with their in laws . really lovely people and I like them. and it is so good that everyone gets on so well .................but ...........
I am on the outside looking in ..........my own fault of course .........dont like social outings etc .......a bit flaky I guess in their eyes :blush:....emotional.
was not always like this ............took the kids to London and all over when they were young :)..........but lost it in their teens and never got myself back really again. some good years in between but never quite the same mum again .
I know I will always be their mum and try hard to make my time with them loving and pleasant ..........but the closeness has gone to another family now naturally and I am sad about that and wish I could turn clock back .
hey ho .......got a lot to be grateful for I know honestly .it has helped to type .
just sometimes you see how it should be without the damn anxiety on your shoulder poking you ....making all the family aware as well and spoiling things .
ah .feel better now :hugs:
I am jealous today .not a nice emotion but I am .
I havent dealt with my long standing anxiety well at all over the years so naturally my lads now enjoy holidays ,meals out ,confidances etc with their in laws . really lovely people and I like them. and it is so good that everyone gets on so well .................but ...........
I am on the outside looking in ..........my own fault of course .........dont like social outings etc .......a bit flaky I guess in their eyes :blush:....emotional.
was not always like this ............took the kids to London and all over when they were young :)..........but lost it in their teens and never got myself back really again. some good years in between but never quite the same mum again .
I know I will always be their mum and try hard to make my time with them loving and pleasant ..........but the closeness has gone to another family now naturally and I am sad about that and wish I could turn clock back .
hey ho .......got a lot to be grateful for I know honestly .it has helped to type .
just sometimes you see how it should be without the damn anxiety on your shoulder poking you ....making all the family aware as well and spoiling things .
ah .feel better now :hugs: