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22-08-11, 17:15
hi all...havent written on here for a while as havent felt the need..been ok recently and people have noticed that I have been alot better but yesterday I suddenly felt crap again...felt really panicky and short of breath and couldnt stop the tears...been a bit stressed recently as my boyfriend has had to do alot of practice and gigs with his band which wasnt his fault but felt like I hadnt seen him in a while which might have made me a bit anxious. Just feel really numb and trying to stay positive and in my job I have to be positive but its so fake and all i want to do is curl up in a little ball and cry.
Not really sure why I am posting this sort of wanted to get stuff out there and see if other people have felt like this....my depression tends to make me question everything about myself and doubt everything from my own saneness, my job, my relationships with people(such as my partner and family etc) which I hate as I love my partner so much and my family so much and they have been amazing towards me and my illness.Basically makes me feel like crap and so worthless and I have had a few really bad episodes where I cant cope and cant work and had to get the crisis team out to help me.I dont want to go back down that route but dont know how to stop this overwhelming feeling of sadness.sorry this is so long winded but could do with any help.xxx
Not really sure why I am posting this sort of wanted to get stuff out there and see if other people have felt like this....my depression tends to make me question everything about myself and doubt everything from my own saneness, my job, my relationships with people(such as my partner and family etc) which I hate as I love my partner so much and my family so much and they have been amazing towards me and my illness.Basically makes me feel like crap and so worthless and I have had a few really bad episodes where I cant cope and cant work and had to get the crisis team out to help me.I dont want to go back down that route but dont know how to stop this overwhelming feeling of sadness.sorry this is so long winded but could do with any help.xxx