SleeplessFog
25-08-11, 00:50
I am having a really hard time right now. My HA is back and pretty bad. I can't even trust myself to think that my symptoms are just anxiety. Actually, I can't tell if it's just anxiety or if I should really be going to the doctor.
Sometimes I think I am just anxious 100% of the time now and if I don't feel super amped up, I think I am relaxed but I am really not.
My job is pretty stressful right now. I am not doing a good job of coping and the stress triggers my HA even more. When I get panicky around my coworkers I can hide it but it feels like I am struggling in a quick sand pit while everyone is just standing around me.
Right now I just want to give up. I am checking the stupid mayo clinic website every other day for something. My newest obsession is my stomach problems. I have all the symptoms of acid reflux but the last 3 times I have had this issue an endoscopy has shown nothing and I get told I have IBS. I am terrified its my heart. I am 31 and I am so scared I am stressing myself into heart disease.
All the coping mechanisms I have learned from my CBT seem to go out the window, I am finding it really hard to stay rational. I freak out about the littlest things and I am back to having nocturnal panic attacks. I feel like I am killing myself slowly.
Does anyone have any tips for getting back on track? I don't see my therapist for another week and I need help. I am really depressed about this because my DH wants us to TTC later this year and I don't think I am mentally strong enough to go through it now.
Sometimes I think I am just anxious 100% of the time now and if I don't feel super amped up, I think I am relaxed but I am really not.
My job is pretty stressful right now. I am not doing a good job of coping and the stress triggers my HA even more. When I get panicky around my coworkers I can hide it but it feels like I am struggling in a quick sand pit while everyone is just standing around me.
Right now I just want to give up. I am checking the stupid mayo clinic website every other day for something. My newest obsession is my stomach problems. I have all the symptoms of acid reflux but the last 3 times I have had this issue an endoscopy has shown nothing and I get told I have IBS. I am terrified its my heart. I am 31 and I am so scared I am stressing myself into heart disease.
All the coping mechanisms I have learned from my CBT seem to go out the window, I am finding it really hard to stay rational. I freak out about the littlest things and I am back to having nocturnal panic attacks. I feel like I am killing myself slowly.
Does anyone have any tips for getting back on track? I don't see my therapist for another week and I need help. I am really depressed about this because my DH wants us to TTC later this year and I don't think I am mentally strong enough to go through it now.