mrpanic
25-08-11, 22:30
Hi everyone. I'll make my story short.
I'm 32.
At 22 I went to France on a plane to work there. Basically the job fell through, i went 100 hours without sleep trying to get home from the centre of France facing train delays, crazy taxis, and a plane which (on the return to the uk) almost crashed. (Problem with the wing and LOTS of turbulence). When I got home I was so tired and ill I couldnt sleep, i fell into deep dark panic for about 4 months where i slept almost ALL that time because I couldnt bear to be awake.
However, I got over it. It was very hard to do. Basically I just woke up one day and said 'right thats it, never again will i panic' and started to live a happier life...Quite amazing really.
Anyway, Im 32 now. At age 29 i started having terrible panics in a car or bus. I went a walk one day up the hills and had a terrible panic attack, i really didnt think i would make it home i was in a terrible state. My throat as the worst, it would cease up in cars or out walks, i would panic like mad and need water with me all the time (everywhere i went)...even then i was still choking it down. When i was up the hill that day i had no water and had to resort to wetting my mouth with muddy puddles...my mouth was dry as a bone...Just terrible, crushing fear, a feeling of pure dread.
I went to doctors, they gave me cds to listen to to relax me, offered me drugs, but they were no help. My psychologist failed to turn up on two occassions and she said "weve never had anyone like YOU before", making me feel like a right freak. She said there was help for me in the next city (10 miles away) and complained when i said i couldnt travel that far! (I HAVE A TRAVEL PHOBIA!!!!) I reminded her. I claimed sickness benefit but eventually they said there was nothing wrong with me so was forced onto JSA (who also complain because i tell them i cant travel). Thanks to our clever new prime minister I also have to start a course soon which is 10 miles away for 2 years to find a job...I just cant do it...I cant find anyone who can help or who understands just doctors that dont show up, dont sympathize, give me useless advice etc...SO....noone has been much help so far. Im in a situation in my life now where i really NEED to get these panic attacks under control. Some days are good, some are bad...But i want to get rid of these for good. I cant wait to read everyones stories and hopefully find some real help on here from people who may understand what this is like. :)
I'm 32.
At 22 I went to France on a plane to work there. Basically the job fell through, i went 100 hours without sleep trying to get home from the centre of France facing train delays, crazy taxis, and a plane which (on the return to the uk) almost crashed. (Problem with the wing and LOTS of turbulence). When I got home I was so tired and ill I couldnt sleep, i fell into deep dark panic for about 4 months where i slept almost ALL that time because I couldnt bear to be awake.
However, I got over it. It was very hard to do. Basically I just woke up one day and said 'right thats it, never again will i panic' and started to live a happier life...Quite amazing really.
Anyway, Im 32 now. At age 29 i started having terrible panics in a car or bus. I went a walk one day up the hills and had a terrible panic attack, i really didnt think i would make it home i was in a terrible state. My throat as the worst, it would cease up in cars or out walks, i would panic like mad and need water with me all the time (everywhere i went)...even then i was still choking it down. When i was up the hill that day i had no water and had to resort to wetting my mouth with muddy puddles...my mouth was dry as a bone...Just terrible, crushing fear, a feeling of pure dread.
I went to doctors, they gave me cds to listen to to relax me, offered me drugs, but they were no help. My psychologist failed to turn up on two occassions and she said "weve never had anyone like YOU before", making me feel like a right freak. She said there was help for me in the next city (10 miles away) and complained when i said i couldnt travel that far! (I HAVE A TRAVEL PHOBIA!!!!) I reminded her. I claimed sickness benefit but eventually they said there was nothing wrong with me so was forced onto JSA (who also complain because i tell them i cant travel). Thanks to our clever new prime minister I also have to start a course soon which is 10 miles away for 2 years to find a job...I just cant do it...I cant find anyone who can help or who understands just doctors that dont show up, dont sympathize, give me useless advice etc...SO....noone has been much help so far. Im in a situation in my life now where i really NEED to get these panic attacks under control. Some days are good, some are bad...But i want to get rid of these for good. I cant wait to read everyones stories and hopefully find some real help on here from people who may understand what this is like. :)