zeezme
07-09-11, 13:22
Hello All,
Just joined today. And obviously if I joined , it means there is a problem! I have been suffering from anxiety for some time now. BUt my HA was well controlled..at the most it used to stay for a few weeks then I would go back to normal. But with the passage of my aunt last year suddenly and then the subsequent betrayal by my BESTEST friend...it has come back with a vengeance! and still there.! To the point that I dont remember a day since a year when I have felt normal..I so miss myself. But I cant help it..and I am not making up stuff..I am always having this or that symptom.
First 6 months it was all heart related..then finally wnt to a cardio who did everything and said all was fine...but that if i keep up with this stress level then its not good for me or my heart! :P
I was finally coming out of my cardio HA when suddenly one night, i found a lump underneath my jaw. COMPLETE PANIC. Showed a doc who said its just a swollen gland..and its iwll go away. This was back in December...I havent touched that place again. But I am 100% sure that the lump is still there..needless to say i was convinced i had lymphoma. And ofcourse the itching started. And that was again another traumatic stressful 4-5 months. I had a full blood checkup in March..and all was fine. ..i tried to minimise my stress..somehow told myself that if i did have lymphoma..i should have lost some weight as its been almost 8 months or so. Come August...while taking a bath I suddenly discovered a lump behind my earlobe..rather on my earlobe (the area where the lobe meets the neck) and SHIT happens all over again..coz again I google..and ofcoz..againa Lymphoma...another shitty month. FInlly felt like complete crap..and went to an ENT..who checked it and said that it was completely superficial ..and its a cyst. But why would i sudden;y get a cyst there? I am so confused...But I didnt mention my lymphoma scare to him..I normally just always want to run out a doctors office once he says that its OK.
So been living with that since then....told myself..that if hte doctor thinks its a cyst..then just trust the doctor.
And yet again..since the past 2 days...again SHIT happens. I have to mention though..that i had eczema as a kid and as a preteen..and needless to say its come back in full swin since all this anxiety and stress kicked in. I have them on my nipples too. Never bothered with them...coz as a preteen too i had them..if they itch really badly..i usually put some elecom and it goes away. But since the pst 2 days I have been having a weird burning sensation in my left nipple/breast!! I am so shit scared..all over again!! I dont know where it is..I cant pinpoint to an exact point. But I think its coming from my nipple..and radiating toeards the right side of my left breast and chest bone. If I stay still the burning isnt there..its only when i shake my breast around or with movemebnt...that this burning sensation is there. I am so scared...
I googled..and ofcourse..Pagets came up. I am 28 years old. Is that the approproate age for this disease? i am so scared..i dont know what it is.
And i am too scared to show a doc.. I had done a breast ultrasound in march 2010..which was ok. But not this year...I am even scared to feel for lumps...
PLease HELP me..what should I do??
Just joined today. And obviously if I joined , it means there is a problem! I have been suffering from anxiety for some time now. BUt my HA was well controlled..at the most it used to stay for a few weeks then I would go back to normal. But with the passage of my aunt last year suddenly and then the subsequent betrayal by my BESTEST friend...it has come back with a vengeance! and still there.! To the point that I dont remember a day since a year when I have felt normal..I so miss myself. But I cant help it..and I am not making up stuff..I am always having this or that symptom.
First 6 months it was all heart related..then finally wnt to a cardio who did everything and said all was fine...but that if i keep up with this stress level then its not good for me or my heart! :P
I was finally coming out of my cardio HA when suddenly one night, i found a lump underneath my jaw. COMPLETE PANIC. Showed a doc who said its just a swollen gland..and its iwll go away. This was back in December...I havent touched that place again. But I am 100% sure that the lump is still there..needless to say i was convinced i had lymphoma. And ofcourse the itching started. And that was again another traumatic stressful 4-5 months. I had a full blood checkup in March..and all was fine. ..i tried to minimise my stress..somehow told myself that if i did have lymphoma..i should have lost some weight as its been almost 8 months or so. Come August...while taking a bath I suddenly discovered a lump behind my earlobe..rather on my earlobe (the area where the lobe meets the neck) and SHIT happens all over again..coz again I google..and ofcoz..againa Lymphoma...another shitty month. FInlly felt like complete crap..and went to an ENT..who checked it and said that it was completely superficial ..and its a cyst. But why would i sudden;y get a cyst there? I am so confused...But I didnt mention my lymphoma scare to him..I normally just always want to run out a doctors office once he says that its OK.
So been living with that since then....told myself..that if hte doctor thinks its a cyst..then just trust the doctor.
And yet again..since the past 2 days...again SHIT happens. I have to mention though..that i had eczema as a kid and as a preteen..and needless to say its come back in full swin since all this anxiety and stress kicked in. I have them on my nipples too. Never bothered with them...coz as a preteen too i had them..if they itch really badly..i usually put some elecom and it goes away. But since the pst 2 days I have been having a weird burning sensation in my left nipple/breast!! I am so shit scared..all over again!! I dont know where it is..I cant pinpoint to an exact point. But I think its coming from my nipple..and radiating toeards the right side of my left breast and chest bone. If I stay still the burning isnt there..its only when i shake my breast around or with movemebnt...that this burning sensation is there. I am so scared...
I googled..and ofcourse..Pagets came up. I am 28 years old. Is that the approproate age for this disease? i am so scared..i dont know what it is.
And i am too scared to show a doc.. I had done a breast ultrasound in march 2010..which was ok. But not this year...I am even scared to feel for lumps...
PLease HELP me..what should I do??