stalwartlover
09-09-11, 13:25
Hello everyone, this is my first post but I have actually been reading this forum since 2008 and it has really helped me with many things to do with Health Anxiety that have troubled me over the years. I am a (fingers crossed) healthy 22 year old. I have had various bouts of Health Anxiety and General Anxiety since I was around 15 (and it runs in my family).
I have been VERY anxious and down over these past 5 weeks and after reading these forums (not googling!),looking for some comfort and not finding it yet, I have decided to write my first post..
It may or may not be linked but my symptoms started when I was about to leave Japan from my year abroad to return back to the UK. During my time in Japan I had been caught up in the earthquake (I was in Tokyo at the time it struck) and then the resulting Nuclear Disaster at Fukushima really made it a stressful time for me. Basically, my girlfriend is Japanese and I could not stand to leave her in Japan and return to the UK so I stayed through the whole period of aftershocks/daily news about nuclear radiation etc. However, at the time I do not really consider that i was being 'overly' panicky etc. when I look back, just very concerned.
Well, before I left Japan I started to notice the floaters in my eyes again (which I have had since 2008) and then my right eye started to twitch uncontrollably daily. Added to that, I started to notice strange things with my vision like things seemed blurry when I read them but they were still sharp at the same time(?!). All this really played on me and I was convinced that i had something wrong with me like MS or with my Brain. I also had quite shallow breathing and I did not seem to be able to catch my breath sometimes (even when talking).
After I came back to the UK I thought at long last I would be OK but infact things got worse. I started to notice more floaters and and I became obsessed with my eyes. I have seen the 'little white bugs swarming about' when looking at the sky etc. but now it seemed worse. I also seem so sensitive to bright lights and cant see too well in the dark (especially if there is a single bright lamp etc. in a dark room).
Anyway, i went to the opticians (with some dread) but he looked at my eyes and did several tests (fields/pressure) etc. and said that my eyes were fine and he could not see any retinal tears etc.. With this, I felt SO relieved ! In fact, that weekend I felt great and almost out of the woods!
However..I slowly but surely started to worry about his prognosis..I started to ask myself things like "what if this is a brain/nerves related problem and he cannot see that by looking at my eyes?. And so since then I have been terrible. Two days later I started to feel chilly and then all of a sudden i started shaking all over, feeling the muscles in my neck, stomach, sides of my chest spasming out of control and my cheeth chattering together. I went full blown panic mode...thought I was going to die..Anyway, with some heavy breathing it seemed to go away each time I let out a deep breath.
But from then on I have had these "shivering/shaking" moments quite a lot. Not so bad as then, but every now and then I notice the muscles in my stomach/neck/chest etc. starting to "shiver" and it really scares me. Sometimes my heart pounds so fast in my chest its all I can focus on and all the time I get these "adrenaline rushes" (feels like butterflies/tingling warm sensation) coming over my chest and I feel really anxious and usuallly after that the shaking will start.
I have really been trying to calm down, but what has got me down the past few days is that for instance when I start to get excited about something.. I get the same feeling in my chest and then I start to get the shaking again! I thought this was all to do with anxiety..but when things like that happen it really makes me wonder what is causing this to happen and I feel so hopeless...
Added to that, I think there is a pain underneath my right armpit/side of my chest and I am panicking about what that could be/whether it is linked to my shaking/eyes/everything....My chest still seems like it is short of breath...And my eyes are still a worry as even though i do not care about the floaters I now seem to have problems looking a Patterns, lines which are close together (blinds,fence posts etc.) and it is really worrying me about my brain.
If there is anyone who has experienced something like this I would love to hear from them..thank you for reading my (too long of a) story and as you say in Japanese どうぞよろしくお願いします (pleased to meet you all!). :byebye:
I have been VERY anxious and down over these past 5 weeks and after reading these forums (not googling!),looking for some comfort and not finding it yet, I have decided to write my first post..
It may or may not be linked but my symptoms started when I was about to leave Japan from my year abroad to return back to the UK. During my time in Japan I had been caught up in the earthquake (I was in Tokyo at the time it struck) and then the resulting Nuclear Disaster at Fukushima really made it a stressful time for me. Basically, my girlfriend is Japanese and I could not stand to leave her in Japan and return to the UK so I stayed through the whole period of aftershocks/daily news about nuclear radiation etc. However, at the time I do not really consider that i was being 'overly' panicky etc. when I look back, just very concerned.
Well, before I left Japan I started to notice the floaters in my eyes again (which I have had since 2008) and then my right eye started to twitch uncontrollably daily. Added to that, I started to notice strange things with my vision like things seemed blurry when I read them but they were still sharp at the same time(?!). All this really played on me and I was convinced that i had something wrong with me like MS or with my Brain. I also had quite shallow breathing and I did not seem to be able to catch my breath sometimes (even when talking).
After I came back to the UK I thought at long last I would be OK but infact things got worse. I started to notice more floaters and and I became obsessed with my eyes. I have seen the 'little white bugs swarming about' when looking at the sky etc. but now it seemed worse. I also seem so sensitive to bright lights and cant see too well in the dark (especially if there is a single bright lamp etc. in a dark room).
Anyway, i went to the opticians (with some dread) but he looked at my eyes and did several tests (fields/pressure) etc. and said that my eyes were fine and he could not see any retinal tears etc.. With this, I felt SO relieved ! In fact, that weekend I felt great and almost out of the woods!
However..I slowly but surely started to worry about his prognosis..I started to ask myself things like "what if this is a brain/nerves related problem and he cannot see that by looking at my eyes?. And so since then I have been terrible. Two days later I started to feel chilly and then all of a sudden i started shaking all over, feeling the muscles in my neck, stomach, sides of my chest spasming out of control and my cheeth chattering together. I went full blown panic mode...thought I was going to die..Anyway, with some heavy breathing it seemed to go away each time I let out a deep breath.
But from then on I have had these "shivering/shaking" moments quite a lot. Not so bad as then, but every now and then I notice the muscles in my stomach/neck/chest etc. starting to "shiver" and it really scares me. Sometimes my heart pounds so fast in my chest its all I can focus on and all the time I get these "adrenaline rushes" (feels like butterflies/tingling warm sensation) coming over my chest and I feel really anxious and usuallly after that the shaking will start.
I have really been trying to calm down, but what has got me down the past few days is that for instance when I start to get excited about something.. I get the same feeling in my chest and then I start to get the shaking again! I thought this was all to do with anxiety..but when things like that happen it really makes me wonder what is causing this to happen and I feel so hopeless...
Added to that, I think there is a pain underneath my right armpit/side of my chest and I am panicking about what that could be/whether it is linked to my shaking/eyes/everything....My chest still seems like it is short of breath...And my eyes are still a worry as even though i do not care about the floaters I now seem to have problems looking a Patterns, lines which are close together (blinds,fence posts etc.) and it is really worrying me about my brain.
If there is anyone who has experienced something like this I would love to hear from them..thank you for reading my (too long of a) story and as you say in Japanese どうぞよろしくお願いします (pleased to meet you all!). :byebye: