stevenr1986
14-09-11, 21:19
;hi. im make 25 in generally good health, rotund but...:D
ever since December 2010 i have had HA all over my EYES. i fear losing my sight more that i fear death, in fact i fear no other form of health related worry. (i did fear my testicles were "ill" but that sorted now with good results!
here is my year since 12/10-
had 18 teeth out leaving me with 3 teeth to eat with (still do) and ALLOT of pain
there was a person next door who said we were neglecting the kids-the school backed us and we were "cleared" of wrong doing-8 weeks of hell over xmas as i love my kids more than me!
quite smoking on 17 December 2010
January my A-level first exam! at the same i started a Law degree
March i was told i was dyslexic (the reason the exams were sssssssssssoooooooo stressing me)
this was a low point in my life tbh:weep:
March April i was told i had A stigma and given glasses (this was a blow to someone who had as the optometry dude put it "iv only seen one or 2 sets of eyes better than yours in my whole life" only a year before.
April and May we had fleas from the next doors cats (all 17 of them as they were going into our bedroom all day and in the night) they were everywhere and cost ££ to remove
June was my birthday-also noticed a black dot in my vision which i ignored as nothing... but i did have a unexplained mark on the cornea? exams again and i freaked as i broke out in spots like never before which i feared would turn to keloid scares as i am susceptible
July came and sh*thit the fan! the kids broke from school and then the day after i had a massive Herpes outbreak type 1 none genital, on the nose, but this time i goggled "herpes in the eye" which send me down a path a wish i had not taken! i freaked and freaked again! but i was given cream for the eye!
then the tingling started and numb feelings too as well as te eye twitching in both eyes! in July again! i thought "bells Palsey" and freaked as it can take sight!
July again, was told "you have a very bad case of dry eye"
August...here we go! "eye floater" and the cream for the herpes i didnt have has changed the chemical composition of the eye meaning i got a floater.
then suddenly on the 31st of aug TINNITUS....
did i mention we have noisy people next door i have had to battle and a sister in law with problem of her own iv taken on too (she is 17 and depressed) as well as gangs to deal with and a horrid boat trip in which i feared for my life...
oh also i was reported for working (when i was not) and was made to wait 3 weeks to see if i was going to lose my income which i did not!
i also feared my wife was going to fail her UNI course so i devoted time to help her in an area of education i know nothing about!
my father is 83 and starts telling me that he feels unwell and is preping for the "end" and here is his last wishes!
i also have what i think are (at the moment) silent migraines, i get visual disturbance in which i see shimmering and it looks like im looking through a fire or heat? i have not been to my docs or opticians as i think iv been there enough and it would only make him annoyed.
iv sought treatment but have asked for CBT but been told "there are none" soo thats that!
but i am reading books!
am i being over reactive or is this allot for one person to deal with?
i have other things that have happened to me but i have forgotten them so may add to the list?
all this has made me want to be dead! as i fear i wont be able to see my son grow up and i wont be able to complete my studies! also i fear that the shimmering is permanent and its another thing i will have to "live" with or live wishing i was dead?
sorry to be depressing!
any one could help?
ever since December 2010 i have had HA all over my EYES. i fear losing my sight more that i fear death, in fact i fear no other form of health related worry. (i did fear my testicles were "ill" but that sorted now with good results!
here is my year since 12/10-
had 18 teeth out leaving me with 3 teeth to eat with (still do) and ALLOT of pain
there was a person next door who said we were neglecting the kids-the school backed us and we were "cleared" of wrong doing-8 weeks of hell over xmas as i love my kids more than me!
quite smoking on 17 December 2010
January my A-level first exam! at the same i started a Law degree
March i was told i was dyslexic (the reason the exams were sssssssssssoooooooo stressing me)
this was a low point in my life tbh:weep:
March April i was told i had A stigma and given glasses (this was a blow to someone who had as the optometry dude put it "iv only seen one or 2 sets of eyes better than yours in my whole life" only a year before.
April and May we had fleas from the next doors cats (all 17 of them as they were going into our bedroom all day and in the night) they were everywhere and cost ££ to remove
June was my birthday-also noticed a black dot in my vision which i ignored as nothing... but i did have a unexplained mark on the cornea? exams again and i freaked as i broke out in spots like never before which i feared would turn to keloid scares as i am susceptible
July came and sh*thit the fan! the kids broke from school and then the day after i had a massive Herpes outbreak type 1 none genital, on the nose, but this time i goggled "herpes in the eye" which send me down a path a wish i had not taken! i freaked and freaked again! but i was given cream for the eye!
then the tingling started and numb feelings too as well as te eye twitching in both eyes! in July again! i thought "bells Palsey" and freaked as it can take sight!
July again, was told "you have a very bad case of dry eye"
August...here we go! "eye floater" and the cream for the herpes i didnt have has changed the chemical composition of the eye meaning i got a floater.
then suddenly on the 31st of aug TINNITUS....
did i mention we have noisy people next door i have had to battle and a sister in law with problem of her own iv taken on too (she is 17 and depressed) as well as gangs to deal with and a horrid boat trip in which i feared for my life...
oh also i was reported for working (when i was not) and was made to wait 3 weeks to see if i was going to lose my income which i did not!
i also feared my wife was going to fail her UNI course so i devoted time to help her in an area of education i know nothing about!
my father is 83 and starts telling me that he feels unwell and is preping for the "end" and here is his last wishes!
i also have what i think are (at the moment) silent migraines, i get visual disturbance in which i see shimmering and it looks like im looking through a fire or heat? i have not been to my docs or opticians as i think iv been there enough and it would only make him annoyed.
iv sought treatment but have asked for CBT but been told "there are none" soo thats that!
but i am reading books!
am i being over reactive or is this allot for one person to deal with?
i have other things that have happened to me but i have forgotten them so may add to the list?
all this has made me want to be dead! as i fear i wont be able to see my son grow up and i wont be able to complete my studies! also i fear that the shimmering is permanent and its another thing i will have to "live" with or live wishing i was dead?
sorry to be depressing!
any one could help?