Peru83
17-05-06, 11:36
Hi all,
I've not been on for a while but this is because I've been making a few steps in the right direction. For one thing I stopped the citalopram as the tiredness that I felt from them was unreal so now I just excercise and eat more healthily which I find keeps my thought busy and gives me more get up and go.
Also as some of you know I have been in a very bad relationship for a long time of which was making me miserable. I thought that their was no way out of it because we have children together and I was miles from home, but a couple of weeks ago I had said to myself 'enough is enough'. I was soo miserable and the only person to give a crap about me was me, so the only one to change it was me. I new that I had to get away but felt guilty for some reason. I did though, I left him!! I'm now living with my kids at my mums house. It's a bit of queeze but hey I'm happy and the kids are happy.
I look at my life like a shoe box (daft I know but it will make sense) and I like all of my things to be originised, but alot of things in my shoe box weren't ie my relationship so I just took them out. I decided that everything that made my shoebox untidy or didn't fit just had to go so that I could keep a lid on things. I told my councellor this and she thought it was great that I was making soo many possitive changes and off my own back that she wants to reduce how offten I go to see her! [8D] .
I really feel like I'm moving forward with my life, I do know that what I'm doing isn't a cure for my issues and problems but it helps and like I say it's a step in the right direction. I mean a year ago this month was when I had my first PA and I thought the world was coming to an end and that my life was over and here I am now a year on and doing millions better. Alot of my progress has been down to having you guys int he begining to help me understand and realise I wasn't the only one, what a difference that can make to someone like me. You have all been wonderfull in your support and I just want to say THANK YOU!! I know that I have been difficult in the past and some of you aren't my biggest fan but I even want to say THANK YOU to you guys too for putting up with me. I have been thru soo many hard times of late and have been unbarable. Hopefully all this is about to change and things will happen the way I'm hoping them to.
For all of you out there reading this that have the same issues as me, just realise that it's YOU that has to change and take life buy the horns and go in the direction that will make you happy. At the end of the day life is way to short, live life don't just exist. Get out their make friends, socialise, go to that party with all those people, go to the job interview that you dont' think you will get, just do all these things for the experiance if nothing else. I dont' want to when I come to die have a belly full of regrets of the things that I coulda and shoulda done. It's all about PMA (Possitive Mental Attitude) if you approach things possitively then you will find that it will be a good experiance but if your negative then as you know it wont even be an experiance cause you just wont go. Be possitive!
I really do wish all of you the best and trust me there is a light at the end of the tunnel you just have to find out where.
Take Care all of you
Claire
Oh and lucy I'm SORRY!! I really especially wish you all the best and hope that you to find your light at the end of the tunnel.
I've not been on for a while but this is because I've been making a few steps in the right direction. For one thing I stopped the citalopram as the tiredness that I felt from them was unreal so now I just excercise and eat more healthily which I find keeps my thought busy and gives me more get up and go.
Also as some of you know I have been in a very bad relationship for a long time of which was making me miserable. I thought that their was no way out of it because we have children together and I was miles from home, but a couple of weeks ago I had said to myself 'enough is enough'. I was soo miserable and the only person to give a crap about me was me, so the only one to change it was me. I new that I had to get away but felt guilty for some reason. I did though, I left him!! I'm now living with my kids at my mums house. It's a bit of queeze but hey I'm happy and the kids are happy.
I look at my life like a shoe box (daft I know but it will make sense) and I like all of my things to be originised, but alot of things in my shoe box weren't ie my relationship so I just took them out. I decided that everything that made my shoebox untidy or didn't fit just had to go so that I could keep a lid on things. I told my councellor this and she thought it was great that I was making soo many possitive changes and off my own back that she wants to reduce how offten I go to see her! [8D] .
I really feel like I'm moving forward with my life, I do know that what I'm doing isn't a cure for my issues and problems but it helps and like I say it's a step in the right direction. I mean a year ago this month was when I had my first PA and I thought the world was coming to an end and that my life was over and here I am now a year on and doing millions better. Alot of my progress has been down to having you guys int he begining to help me understand and realise I wasn't the only one, what a difference that can make to someone like me. You have all been wonderfull in your support and I just want to say THANK YOU!! I know that I have been difficult in the past and some of you aren't my biggest fan but I even want to say THANK YOU to you guys too for putting up with me. I have been thru soo many hard times of late and have been unbarable. Hopefully all this is about to change and things will happen the way I'm hoping them to.
For all of you out there reading this that have the same issues as me, just realise that it's YOU that has to change and take life buy the horns and go in the direction that will make you happy. At the end of the day life is way to short, live life don't just exist. Get out their make friends, socialise, go to that party with all those people, go to the job interview that you dont' think you will get, just do all these things for the experiance if nothing else. I dont' want to when I come to die have a belly full of regrets of the things that I coulda and shoulda done. It's all about PMA (Possitive Mental Attitude) if you approach things possitively then you will find that it will be a good experiance but if your negative then as you know it wont even be an experiance cause you just wont go. Be possitive!
I really do wish all of you the best and trust me there is a light at the end of the tunnel you just have to find out where.
Take Care all of you
Claire
Oh and lucy I'm SORRY!! I really especially wish you all the best and hope that you to find your light at the end of the tunnel.