View Full Version : Feeling awful, tearful & suicudal
I have been on citalopram for 3 yrs now. A few weeks ago i decided i wanted to come off them as my hair was falling out. I feel exhausted all the time, in a world of my own, aches n pains & feeling like a have no personality any more. Bad memory. Making sillly mistakes. Lack of confidence amd generally feeling like my life is nothing short of pointless i cut down to 5mg, hoping my body would get used to it eventually but i feel worse day by day. I feel suicidal and more useless than usual. It has been 3 weeks and i feel horrible, like i havent in a long time. I dont know if i should keep going or go back on them like my mum wants me to. She is becoming worried about me. I also never spoke to doctors first as i felt that they would want me to stay on them?? I dontt want to. I have had enough of feeling numb to the world. I suffer from depression and panic attacks and hadnot had panic attack in 3 months. I feel that i have always felt sad about my life and purpose. I dont kmowwhat to do. Some advice would be much appreciated xx my mum has battled with depression and panic attacks for many years and i cannot bare to be on them for the rest of my life...
nomorepanic
20-09-11, 13:14
Hi ziizii_81
A huge warm welcome to nmp.
You'll get loads of advice and support here and make some lovely friends along the way.
Best wishes
Thank you! I hope i can get some advice here from people who actually understand what i am going through :-/ x
venusbluejeans
20-09-11, 13:22
Hiya and welcome to NMP I hope you find the help and advice here and maybe make a few friends in the process
:welcome:
Hey sorry to hear you having a hard time, I know exactly what your going through I'm currenly cutting back on my citalopram. I was on 40mg but cutting down to 20mg, this is my second attemp first time round i had to go back on them wasnt coping well without. This time im determind to ride it out that's the main reason I came back here so I don't have to go through it alone.
I know things will get worse for me as I drop my meds but it to be expected but I say is if your really feeling that low maybe make another appointment with the doctor get some advise.
...maybe make another appointment with the doctor get some advise.
Also, are you seeing any sort of therapist? If not, I can recommend strongly enough that you do so. Just having someone who'll listen to your troubles and not judging can be of huge benefit to you. Also, a trained therapist knows when to dispense advice and when to remain quiet and listen.
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