LittleM
27-09-11, 11:49
I hope you can help me. I have suffered with anxiety and panic attacks for over a year now. I am waiting back on blood test results to make sure there's no underlying cause. But even so, I want to get cognitive behavioural therapy after.
Anyway, I'm 21 and meant to be going back to university this week. I had to leave last year because of the anxiety (a bullying house mate started it off but she's out of my life now) so I'm starting third year again now. But last night I felt like I had indigestion and like someone was choking me and I couldn't burp. I still have it now and I don't know if it is indigestion or it's my anxiety. It won't go away. So I've had to miss my first day back of university which I feel so disappointed about but I just don't feel well enough to go. My parents are on holiday in Scotland this week and my sister is at work everyday. I feel so alone and I'm scared that if something happened to me health wise no one would be here to help.
I want to ask my Mum to come home. She has cancer and this holiday was for her in between her treatments. I feel awful for ringing her up and telling her how scared and anxious I feel but I just want her so bad to comfort me and be here. But I can't ruin her holiday, I just don't know how I'm going to get through this week feeling like I'm having a panic attack every minute. She calms me down instantly, and I don't know why I can't calm down without her, or my Dad.
I'm so scared and I just want this anxiety to go away. I will get it sorted, I will get therapy, I just don't know what to do this week as my head feels a mess.
Anyway, I'm 21 and meant to be going back to university this week. I had to leave last year because of the anxiety (a bullying house mate started it off but she's out of my life now) so I'm starting third year again now. But last night I felt like I had indigestion and like someone was choking me and I couldn't burp. I still have it now and I don't know if it is indigestion or it's my anxiety. It won't go away. So I've had to miss my first day back of university which I feel so disappointed about but I just don't feel well enough to go. My parents are on holiday in Scotland this week and my sister is at work everyday. I feel so alone and I'm scared that if something happened to me health wise no one would be here to help.
I want to ask my Mum to come home. She has cancer and this holiday was for her in between her treatments. I feel awful for ringing her up and telling her how scared and anxious I feel but I just want her so bad to comfort me and be here. But I can't ruin her holiday, I just don't know how I'm going to get through this week feeling like I'm having a panic attack every minute. She calms me down instantly, and I don't know why I can't calm down without her, or my Dad.
I'm so scared and I just want this anxiety to go away. I will get it sorted, I will get therapy, I just don't know what to do this week as my head feels a mess.