MrMonkey
20-05-06, 12:42
As some of you will know, I joined this forum last week after having a panic attack, which occured while I was in the shower. Since then I've been feeling a little tense everytime I go for a shower. I know it's not the shower I am frightened of just that it now reminds me of my last panic, which it is only naturally to have an aversion to. As well, just when the water hits me in a certain way I can feel it trigger a memory and a wave of panic which I have to fight down. I really have to concentrate to relax muscles that are suddenly tense and breathe deep, move at a slower pace or I know it will get worse.
I'm not really posting this for advice because I know that each time I go, it will be better and eventually I will forget and go back to having my long warm showers (ahhh, now there is a way to relax!) but more so I can order my thoughts and with the aim that others can read this and know they are experiencing the same thing - though friendly words will be accepted with gratitude).
It is like, after having a couple of panic attacks while I was in a car, I then began to fear travelling. I thought it was the feeling of being restricted in a seat but it was just an association and once I had been on a three hour drive with my mum to visit my sister I got over it because I was forced to relax - I had no choice. You have to prove to yourself you can still do these things and thats why, no matter how bad you feel, you should never let your anxiety stop you living your life.
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It's just my high anxiety getting to the best of me. I call him Bingbongilypoop. Then I can laugh at him cos he has a funny name. HAHA! [points]
I'm not really posting this for advice because I know that each time I go, it will be better and eventually I will forget and go back to having my long warm showers (ahhh, now there is a way to relax!) but more so I can order my thoughts and with the aim that others can read this and know they are experiencing the same thing - though friendly words will be accepted with gratitude).
It is like, after having a couple of panic attacks while I was in a car, I then began to fear travelling. I thought it was the feeling of being restricted in a seat but it was just an association and once I had been on a three hour drive with my mum to visit my sister I got over it because I was forced to relax - I had no choice. You have to prove to yourself you can still do these things and thats why, no matter how bad you feel, you should never let your anxiety stop you living your life.
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It's just my high anxiety getting to the best of me. I call him Bingbongilypoop. Then I can laugh at him cos he has a funny name. HAHA! [points]