DisturbedDani
07-10-11, 15:42
....because the one I've got keeps telling me that I'm gonna die soon, that I have undetected Cancer, a brain tumour or I'm gonna drop down dead of a heart attack :weep: without any prior warning.
My latest worry is a pulmonary embolism. This stems from a bad 'episode' last night whereby I went to bed, totally calm and rational but then woke up a couple of hours later with a hellish pain on the left side of my chest. It was a sharp, constant pain which worsened when I inhaled. I told my boyfriend (who is more than used to my health anxiety) and he immediately told me to calm down, take deep breaths...the usual. However, I couldn't take deep breaths because it was so incredibly painful when I did so. In the back of my mind I kept thinking I was panicking, that the pain was real but wasn't sinister, but adrenaline took over and I went into full-on panic mode! I was on the bedroom floor shouting at my boyfriend to call 999. He was faffing about turning his phone on and I couldn't find mine and the house phone was out of action...a real comedy of errors, although not at the time.
The paramedics came and were brilliant. I had an ECG which depicted 'normal sinus rhythm' and my B/P was slightly elevated but nothing too bad. The pain started to subside as I sat there with the paramedics although was still there and still here today. I was reassured last night that it sounded 'muscular'...and having a 9 month old baby who I'm picking up and putting down regularly, it could well be. However, I am convinced that it's not that, I now think it is a pulmonary embolism as it is still hurting today and I have no other reason, in my mind, for this pain. The one thing that has alleviated my anxiety a little is that the pain is nowhere near as bad as it was when it woke me. I just want it to go!
I had started to think I was over all of this health anxiety. It seemed to subside whilst I was pregnant but about 1 month after my daughter was born, little things started to creep back into my mind. I'm on Setraline 100mg but I just can't beat these health demons. I just want someone to rewire my brain......I am so down :(
My latest worry is a pulmonary embolism. This stems from a bad 'episode' last night whereby I went to bed, totally calm and rational but then woke up a couple of hours later with a hellish pain on the left side of my chest. It was a sharp, constant pain which worsened when I inhaled. I told my boyfriend (who is more than used to my health anxiety) and he immediately told me to calm down, take deep breaths...the usual. However, I couldn't take deep breaths because it was so incredibly painful when I did so. In the back of my mind I kept thinking I was panicking, that the pain was real but wasn't sinister, but adrenaline took over and I went into full-on panic mode! I was on the bedroom floor shouting at my boyfriend to call 999. He was faffing about turning his phone on and I couldn't find mine and the house phone was out of action...a real comedy of errors, although not at the time.
The paramedics came and were brilliant. I had an ECG which depicted 'normal sinus rhythm' and my B/P was slightly elevated but nothing too bad. The pain started to subside as I sat there with the paramedics although was still there and still here today. I was reassured last night that it sounded 'muscular'...and having a 9 month old baby who I'm picking up and putting down regularly, it could well be. However, I am convinced that it's not that, I now think it is a pulmonary embolism as it is still hurting today and I have no other reason, in my mind, for this pain. The one thing that has alleviated my anxiety a little is that the pain is nowhere near as bad as it was when it woke me. I just want it to go!
I had started to think I was over all of this health anxiety. It seemed to subside whilst I was pregnant but about 1 month after my daughter was born, little things started to creep back into my mind. I'm on Setraline 100mg but I just can't beat these health demons. I just want someone to rewire my brain......I am so down :(