Natalie x
08-10-11, 23:52
Hi. Firstly, apologies for the long post. You may have seen my previous posts over paranoia that I have been having over the past couple of months. It mostly started with being paranoid at work - paranoid about not doing something correctly, forgetting to do something important after I would leave work and would check and check again through everything. I have put this down to just wanting to strive for success and do well in my career.
It then moved onto paranoia with my friends. I would constantly analyse conversations I had with friends both face to fave and over text/facebook etc. And kept thinking "what if I have said something out of turn or that I shouldn't have? What will they think of me" etc. Well I have got myself into that situation yet again.
Last night, one of my friends facebooked me to ask if I wanted to go to the cinema on saturday and a bite to eat so we made the arrangements for this satirday. Trouble is, I was supposed to be going on a night out with a couple of girls from my college course. I decided to text my friend from college to say that it had totally slipped my mind about the night out and had arranged to go out with my friend. I apologised and asked if we could do it the week after and she replied to say that it was not a problem and we could arrange for another saturday. I keep looking at the texts wondering if she sounded angry and then I'm paranoid that she will look at my facebook page and see my convo with my friend to make the arrangements for satirday. I keep thinking "what if she has picked me up wrong and thinks the cinema trip was previously arranged" instead of it being arranged last night when I totally forgot about the college night out. I keep thinking "what if she sees that and is angry? What if she falls oit with me?". I don't think she is the type of girl to be like that but I keep going over it in my head and can't wait until I see her on tuesday to just apologise to her again and see how she is with me.
I really hope I am just overthinking again (as usual). I really thought i was getting somewhere with all of this but it is back again. Can anyone offer some advice/help please? Thanks x
It then moved onto paranoia with my friends. I would constantly analyse conversations I had with friends both face to fave and over text/facebook etc. And kept thinking "what if I have said something out of turn or that I shouldn't have? What will they think of me" etc. Well I have got myself into that situation yet again.
Last night, one of my friends facebooked me to ask if I wanted to go to the cinema on saturday and a bite to eat so we made the arrangements for this satirday. Trouble is, I was supposed to be going on a night out with a couple of girls from my college course. I decided to text my friend from college to say that it had totally slipped my mind about the night out and had arranged to go out with my friend. I apologised and asked if we could do it the week after and she replied to say that it was not a problem and we could arrange for another saturday. I keep looking at the texts wondering if she sounded angry and then I'm paranoid that she will look at my facebook page and see my convo with my friend to make the arrangements for satirday. I keep thinking "what if she has picked me up wrong and thinks the cinema trip was previously arranged" instead of it being arranged last night when I totally forgot about the college night out. I keep thinking "what if she sees that and is angry? What if she falls oit with me?". I don't think she is the type of girl to be like that but I keep going over it in my head and can't wait until I see her on tuesday to just apologise to her again and see how she is with me.
I really hope I am just overthinking again (as usual). I really thought i was getting somewhere with all of this but it is back again. Can anyone offer some advice/help please? Thanks x