JessieBear
10-10-11, 16:25
Hello everyone. I have just joined this forum as I've decided I need more support in relation to my anxiety. I was diagnosed as having anxiety 3 years ago, after being off work for 6 weeks and not understanding how I was feeling and why. Prior to that I had been trying to deal with my anxiety for years, without knowing what it was.
I have accessed counselling and CBT which has been really helpful but I still struggle at certain times. My main anxiety is in relation to work and I have to talk myself through my anxiety each morning in order to get to work and get through the day. Mondays are extremely difficult, Tuesdays still difficult, Wednesdays are better and Thursdays and Fridays are fine as I know the weekend is on the horizon. I tend to wake up on a Sunday with a feeling of dread, knowing that Monday is looming.
I am trying to accept that this won't ever 'go away' but that it's the way I deal with it that will make the difference. I know that if I focus on being busy at work, the day will go quickly and I'll be free again, to go home where I feel safe. This does help me get through but I worry that I'm wishing my life away by setting goals to get me to the end of the day / week.
I countdown to holidays and when they come to an end I feel very stressed and anxious. I know that this is down to my anxiety and again I try and talk myself through it but it's hard - sometimes I wish I just didn't have to go and that life would be much easier. But I know I can't spend my life without working - bills to pay and a family to support. Plus I enjoy the social side of work, even if it's a struggle to get there every day.
My Nan was taken ill last week which resulted in me being off work for three days to be with her. The situation, plus the fact that I have been away for a few days have meant that I've gone from feeling quite positive to feeling low again. Today I managed to go to work but have come home early as I was struggling. This frustrates me as I know I need to stick it out rather than run away.
Well, I don't know where all of that came from...it's just so much easier to write these things down I find. I'm not sure where to go from here. I love my life and I don't want this to get in the way. The way I feel sometimes is that if only I could take away having to go to work, I'd feel so much better. But I also feel that the fact that I manage to go is my way of facing up to it, even if I still do have my ups and downs.
If anyone is reading this and can relate to how I'm feeling and offer any advice I'd really appreciate it. I'm not sure if I've posted in the right place...maybe I should have just said hello? LOL :D
I have accessed counselling and CBT which has been really helpful but I still struggle at certain times. My main anxiety is in relation to work and I have to talk myself through my anxiety each morning in order to get to work and get through the day. Mondays are extremely difficult, Tuesdays still difficult, Wednesdays are better and Thursdays and Fridays are fine as I know the weekend is on the horizon. I tend to wake up on a Sunday with a feeling of dread, knowing that Monday is looming.
I am trying to accept that this won't ever 'go away' but that it's the way I deal with it that will make the difference. I know that if I focus on being busy at work, the day will go quickly and I'll be free again, to go home where I feel safe. This does help me get through but I worry that I'm wishing my life away by setting goals to get me to the end of the day / week.
I countdown to holidays and when they come to an end I feel very stressed and anxious. I know that this is down to my anxiety and again I try and talk myself through it but it's hard - sometimes I wish I just didn't have to go and that life would be much easier. But I know I can't spend my life without working - bills to pay and a family to support. Plus I enjoy the social side of work, even if it's a struggle to get there every day.
My Nan was taken ill last week which resulted in me being off work for three days to be with her. The situation, plus the fact that I have been away for a few days have meant that I've gone from feeling quite positive to feeling low again. Today I managed to go to work but have come home early as I was struggling. This frustrates me as I know I need to stick it out rather than run away.
Well, I don't know where all of that came from...it's just so much easier to write these things down I find. I'm not sure where to go from here. I love my life and I don't want this to get in the way. The way I feel sometimes is that if only I could take away having to go to work, I'd feel so much better. But I also feel that the fact that I manage to go is my way of facing up to it, even if I still do have my ups and downs.
If anyone is reading this and can relate to how I'm feeling and offer any advice I'd really appreciate it. I'm not sure if I've posted in the right place...maybe I should have just said hello? LOL :D