Joellie
12-10-11, 22:26
Hey everyone.
I was happily on citalopram until july, and since then either my situation in life has got worse or my anxiety is making normal situations into mountains!
Basically, A really close (my only close) friend has had this "boyfriend" for the last 5 months. At first i was a bit jelous but that soon turned into having a good reason to hate him. Bascially, approx every 2 weeks of their relationship he has done something which normally earns "boyfriends" a one way ticket to dumps-ville. He has cheated repeatedly with the same person on her, texted this person, bed hopped, almost passed on an STI to her. She just seems to have fallen totally gaga for him and has let everything go. He has pretty much used her the last month and only spent time with her to sleep with her and then he would shortly leave. He slept with her and then dumped her on her birthday but some how she seems to think that he will change. My problem until recently was that it bothered me that he keeps manipulating her. But im slowly losing my sympathy for her.
As im slowly losing control of my anxiety through this, uni stress and job stress, her situation is bothering me more than it should. Ive changed my look on it. Its bothering me that she will complain about him and about it, get upset, expect sympathy and an ear to listen. And then the next minute be ok with him like nothings happened. Its her choice but its getting me down. I hate this guy seriously, and every time she goes back to him i feel crap about it.
I dont want to not handle my anxiety anymore, but its making it hard when im constantly angry with her situation. Im not sure what to do, I told her that i dont want to talk about it but she is still texting me stuff and talking to me about it. I just dont want to hear it anymore.Im beyond just letting her do it and be there to be supportive, i dread her calls and feel like i dont want to spend any time with her anymore.
Am i being a bad friend?? Shouldnt friends be there for each other? I dont know, but i feel like either i keep going and burn out or distance myself and stay sane :/
Sorry its a rant, i needed to get it out more than anything i think :S
I was happily on citalopram until july, and since then either my situation in life has got worse or my anxiety is making normal situations into mountains!
Basically, A really close (my only close) friend has had this "boyfriend" for the last 5 months. At first i was a bit jelous but that soon turned into having a good reason to hate him. Bascially, approx every 2 weeks of their relationship he has done something which normally earns "boyfriends" a one way ticket to dumps-ville. He has cheated repeatedly with the same person on her, texted this person, bed hopped, almost passed on an STI to her. She just seems to have fallen totally gaga for him and has let everything go. He has pretty much used her the last month and only spent time with her to sleep with her and then he would shortly leave. He slept with her and then dumped her on her birthday but some how she seems to think that he will change. My problem until recently was that it bothered me that he keeps manipulating her. But im slowly losing my sympathy for her.
As im slowly losing control of my anxiety through this, uni stress and job stress, her situation is bothering me more than it should. Ive changed my look on it. Its bothering me that she will complain about him and about it, get upset, expect sympathy and an ear to listen. And then the next minute be ok with him like nothings happened. Its her choice but its getting me down. I hate this guy seriously, and every time she goes back to him i feel crap about it.
I dont want to not handle my anxiety anymore, but its making it hard when im constantly angry with her situation. Im not sure what to do, I told her that i dont want to talk about it but she is still texting me stuff and talking to me about it. I just dont want to hear it anymore.Im beyond just letting her do it and be there to be supportive, i dread her calls and feel like i dont want to spend any time with her anymore.
Am i being a bad friend?? Shouldnt friends be there for each other? I dont know, but i feel like either i keep going and burn out or distance myself and stay sane :/
Sorry its a rant, i needed to get it out more than anything i think :S