crazylady
15-10-11, 22:51
Hi all,
Have visited before but never been driven to sign up until tonight...
Finished a course of cbt for depression/low self esteem/social anxiety earlier this yr. I've always been a serious worried but had only had two panic attacks in my lifes until a couple of months ago...
One day coming home from work I got stuck on a tube train for half an hour and panicked badly... There were riots in London the week after that and my panic carried on spiralling so I went to the doc. Since then I've been panicking a lot – night terrors, in work meetings, on the bus, you name it. It's taking up a huge amount of my time and energy. Tonight I was going out to the pub to a friend's birthday – panicked on the bus and had to get off. Had a total freakout and had to come home...the first time I've ever turned around completely on my way somewhere and feels like a new low.
I've been having big problems with eating/swallowing/fear of choking simmering away for about a year too. This reached a head last week –went out for pizza with one of my best friends last night and couldn't eat a thing (literally had about 3 bites). To make thing worse I got engaged a few weeks ago too and this is really spoiling this happy time for me – I want to celebrate with everyone and look forward to the wedding, but my head is clouded up with fear and panic.
I'm supposed to have dinner with my fiances godparents on tuesday and can't comprehend going at the moment. I have a cbt appt this thursday though so fingers crossed it will be productive.
Thanks for reading x
Have visited before but never been driven to sign up until tonight...
Finished a course of cbt for depression/low self esteem/social anxiety earlier this yr. I've always been a serious worried but had only had two panic attacks in my lifes until a couple of months ago...
One day coming home from work I got stuck on a tube train for half an hour and panicked badly... There were riots in London the week after that and my panic carried on spiralling so I went to the doc. Since then I've been panicking a lot – night terrors, in work meetings, on the bus, you name it. It's taking up a huge amount of my time and energy. Tonight I was going out to the pub to a friend's birthday – panicked on the bus and had to get off. Had a total freakout and had to come home...the first time I've ever turned around completely on my way somewhere and feels like a new low.
I've been having big problems with eating/swallowing/fear of choking simmering away for about a year too. This reached a head last week –went out for pizza with one of my best friends last night and couldn't eat a thing (literally had about 3 bites). To make thing worse I got engaged a few weeks ago too and this is really spoiling this happy time for me – I want to celebrate with everyone and look forward to the wedding, but my head is clouded up with fear and panic.
I'm supposed to have dinner with my fiances godparents on tuesday and can't comprehend going at the moment. I have a cbt appt this thursday though so fingers crossed it will be productive.
Thanks for reading x