GirlAfraid23
16-10-11, 13:42
I was out this weekend in my old university town and bumped into somebody I haven't seen in about a year and a half. I also had a falling out with this person so we didn't speak for a year. This is no ordinary person though, he was a very close friend of mine and also somebody I fell for whilst at uni. I have always held a candle for him and hoped that one day he would turn up at my door blah blah that sort of thing. However I never really believed I would ever see him again.
But there he was...we had basically bumped into each other without organising a meeting or anything. It really threw me and my heart was beating out of my chest when I saw him. It was really quite difficult for me to speak to him so I stayed with my friends all night and tried to forget he was there. On the way back, as I was walking down the road he was coming towards me with some friends, he looked right at me but didn't smile, say hello or anything. I think he was perhaps abit bemused as to why I was there.
I then text him on my way home and asked him if he was out tonight at said place and he answered yes but claimed he hadn't seen me although he pretty much looked straight into my eyes as I walked past him.
He then said it would be nice to meet up and as I was little drunk I said I could do this week.
He agreed and we are apparentley meeting for the first time in over a year - just the two of us.
I am very very anxious, even writing about it my hands are clammy and my stomach is writhing. It has sent my anxiety up a few levels I can tell you! Before this weekend everything was pretty much back on track and I didn't feel too anxious at all.
I am planning to go because I feel I may regret it otherwise.
I have wanted this for so long but now that it has finally come around I am very apprehensive and feel like its too good to be true. I have fantasised about the two of us meeting up alone and me confessing my true feelings to him but now I'm worrying he will either get cold feet and not turn up or cancel on me so I feel as though I'm playing with fire as my emotions are all over the place at the moment. I need advice from anyone who has been in a similar situation or anybody who has any insight. I thought I would be happy but i'm just anxious, waiting on tenterhooks almost for the day we do meet and then where do we go from there? I also have a partner now so that makes things even more difficult. Help!
---------- Post added at 13:42 ---------- Previous post was at 13:38 ----------
Oh and to also add to the post. I am sort of confused as to why he wants to meet now opposed to a year/6 months ago and why would he organise to meet this week when he didn't even speak to me when he saw me this weekend?! It doesn't make sense!
But there he was...we had basically bumped into each other without organising a meeting or anything. It really threw me and my heart was beating out of my chest when I saw him. It was really quite difficult for me to speak to him so I stayed with my friends all night and tried to forget he was there. On the way back, as I was walking down the road he was coming towards me with some friends, he looked right at me but didn't smile, say hello or anything. I think he was perhaps abit bemused as to why I was there.
I then text him on my way home and asked him if he was out tonight at said place and he answered yes but claimed he hadn't seen me although he pretty much looked straight into my eyes as I walked past him.
He then said it would be nice to meet up and as I was little drunk I said I could do this week.
He agreed and we are apparentley meeting for the first time in over a year - just the two of us.
I am very very anxious, even writing about it my hands are clammy and my stomach is writhing. It has sent my anxiety up a few levels I can tell you! Before this weekend everything was pretty much back on track and I didn't feel too anxious at all.
I am planning to go because I feel I may regret it otherwise.
I have wanted this for so long but now that it has finally come around I am very apprehensive and feel like its too good to be true. I have fantasised about the two of us meeting up alone and me confessing my true feelings to him but now I'm worrying he will either get cold feet and not turn up or cancel on me so I feel as though I'm playing with fire as my emotions are all over the place at the moment. I need advice from anyone who has been in a similar situation or anybody who has any insight. I thought I would be happy but i'm just anxious, waiting on tenterhooks almost for the day we do meet and then where do we go from there? I also have a partner now so that makes things even more difficult. Help!
---------- Post added at 13:42 ---------- Previous post was at 13:38 ----------
Oh and to also add to the post. I am sort of confused as to why he wants to meet now opposed to a year/6 months ago and why would he organise to meet this week when he didn't even speak to me when he saw me this weekend?! It doesn't make sense!