jasminepearl
19-10-11, 15:14
Hi all,
I was in good health until about a year and a half ago when a horrible traumatic event happened to me and my family (don't really want to go into details). I had been signed off work then for 13 days. I thought I had been dealing with things well after, but recently things have gone from bad to worse.
I took an overdose in February while drunk, and was put on Prozac 40mg - a couple of months ago I went back to the doctors as I felt it wasn't working. I was very depressed and having panic attacks. He put me on Mirtazipine 30mg, which has helped me sleep, but I've put on 2 stone and I feel like I'm losing my mind. My main worry is that I'm going to lose my job... I can't function, I get constant colds, I make mistakes in everything I do. If I lose my job my life is over, I am so worried. Last week my anxiety got so bad about this that I took a knife and tried to slit my wrists in the bath. There was a lot of blood, but I'm OK. I didn't go to hospital or the doctor, I'm too embarrassed. In one way I want to get signed off, and take time to heal and get properly better. But if this happens will this ruin my career? Does anyone know if I will be ineligible for a pay rise and bonus in the new year? - both of which I desperately need. Normally I love my job and I want to stay here, I'm just not coping right now and don't know what the right thing to do is... Has anyone had any common experiences?
I was in good health until about a year and a half ago when a horrible traumatic event happened to me and my family (don't really want to go into details). I had been signed off work then for 13 days. I thought I had been dealing with things well after, but recently things have gone from bad to worse.
I took an overdose in February while drunk, and was put on Prozac 40mg - a couple of months ago I went back to the doctors as I felt it wasn't working. I was very depressed and having panic attacks. He put me on Mirtazipine 30mg, which has helped me sleep, but I've put on 2 stone and I feel like I'm losing my mind. My main worry is that I'm going to lose my job... I can't function, I get constant colds, I make mistakes in everything I do. If I lose my job my life is over, I am so worried. Last week my anxiety got so bad about this that I took a knife and tried to slit my wrists in the bath. There was a lot of blood, but I'm OK. I didn't go to hospital or the doctor, I'm too embarrassed. In one way I want to get signed off, and take time to heal and get properly better. But if this happens will this ruin my career? Does anyone know if I will be ineligible for a pay rise and bonus in the new year? - both of which I desperately need. Normally I love my job and I want to stay here, I'm just not coping right now and don't know what the right thing to do is... Has anyone had any common experiences?