millym
31-10-11, 14:18
Been off my work due to bullying by a colleague, been to Occupational Health, all the managerial meetings and finally, mediation. I was reluctant to do so but keen to show her how hurt and humiliated she had made me numeorus times over 5yrs. The mediation was worse than I could ever have imagined, after going through the events of the previous years,my work colleague laughed and called me a "complete liar" and that I had totally imagined all the things she had said to me. Also that I was paranoid and all my work colleagues were talking about me. You can imagine the effect that would have on anyone, but I have been depressed for many months because of this person, culminating in me being off work. I burst into floods of tears but managed to say to her that the only good thing was she had always made humiliating comments in front of an audience, so they must also be paranoid! My manager has said that the mediation was the last thing my company can do (they have ignored my complaints over the previous 5yrs and basically stuck their heads in the sand while I became ill) and are putting pressure on me to go back. My union are useless and I feel so alone. I enjoyed my job but the thought of working with this horrible person again and everyone talking about me is making me physically sick with worry. I know the "easy" thing to do is walk away but I've lost all my confidence and self-esteem and don't think I could even apply for another job never mind going to an interview :weep: Can anyone offer advice or help me see things a bit clearer - please??