rapidhopeloss
31-10-11, 15:17
I am not sure if I am posting this in the right place, I am not sure where to post it. There isn't a board for Mental crazy people so .. Yeah I am a bit stuck.
Had a bad bad few month's, I won't go into detail but it has been terrible and stressful and just a nightmare! Anyway after the terrible few months I had been a bit down for about two weeks, and then something else happened, which got me even more down, and now for about the past 5 days, I have been badly badly anxious, really badly, I feel like I am not real, like the world isn't real, I have panic attacks too, I feel so down, I used to suffer quite badly from anxiety about 4years ago but I thought I had got over it, now its back and even worse and i swear I am going mad. I mean , How can a person worry they arent real? Have panic attacks over it? I look in the mirror and don't feel real, I went to the shop today, When i had came out I thought to myself 'who knows if i did go in there really, it might not of happened,none of it is real' Then I panic that I am going to black out at any moment and either not wake up,or wake up and be somewhere where I have no idea where I am or who I am.Which to be honest I dont feel i know who the hell I am anyway!. I Truly Believe I am going mental.. I know none of this makes sense, Its hard to explain it. But i feel like I am in a big dark hole full of anxiety and panic and I cant escape. I am overthinking everything, Any little actions I do I over think and wonder how I did that, how i knew how i did that, am i real? All stuff like that.
I know it sounds mental, and it IS mental. I just want to sleep all the time because atleast then I don't have to deal with feeling this way. I Feel as If i am going to end up in a mental home. I get all hot and clammy, and panicky and feel sick...
Any idea what the hell is going on? I have read up about Depersonalization and while some of it sounds familiar,it doesn't sound half as bad as what I have so I dont think it is that. I Have this all day everyday,and its been this way for over a week now
I wake up in the night and am panicking When will this go away.. I question every little movement I do and nothing feels real/right it all feels odd and I am terrified.
Had a bad bad few month's, I won't go into detail but it has been terrible and stressful and just a nightmare! Anyway after the terrible few months I had been a bit down for about two weeks, and then something else happened, which got me even more down, and now for about the past 5 days, I have been badly badly anxious, really badly, I feel like I am not real, like the world isn't real, I have panic attacks too, I feel so down, I used to suffer quite badly from anxiety about 4years ago but I thought I had got over it, now its back and even worse and i swear I am going mad. I mean , How can a person worry they arent real? Have panic attacks over it? I look in the mirror and don't feel real, I went to the shop today, When i had came out I thought to myself 'who knows if i did go in there really, it might not of happened,none of it is real' Then I panic that I am going to black out at any moment and either not wake up,or wake up and be somewhere where I have no idea where I am or who I am.Which to be honest I dont feel i know who the hell I am anyway!. I Truly Believe I am going mental.. I know none of this makes sense, Its hard to explain it. But i feel like I am in a big dark hole full of anxiety and panic and I cant escape. I am overthinking everything, Any little actions I do I over think and wonder how I did that, how i knew how i did that, am i real? All stuff like that.
I know it sounds mental, and it IS mental. I just want to sleep all the time because atleast then I don't have to deal with feeling this way. I Feel as If i am going to end up in a mental home. I get all hot and clammy, and panicky and feel sick...
Any idea what the hell is going on? I have read up about Depersonalization and while some of it sounds familiar,it doesn't sound half as bad as what I have so I dont think it is that. I Have this all day everyday,and its been this way for over a week now
I wake up in the night and am panicking When will this go away.. I question every little movement I do and nothing feels real/right it all feels odd and I am terrified.