Whitetrash
06-11-11, 09:20
So, Im a 27 year old living with OCD (Pure O)
I do the cycling thing, i have been on Sertraline for a while and im presently in my "drop it and move on" phase where i have tapered my does down over a couple weeks and i am now medication free.
So how do i feel?
Well, my most hated side effect is gone, i don't feel like a stranger in my own mind... Depersonalisation is just so draining for me hence i tend to give my meds up just so i can feel "myself" again.
However i also accept that the intrusive thoughts are in the post and on the way, the fear will creep back in and the panic attacks will soon cripple me and i will be sobbing to my doctor that i need my script back and i will once again go through the horrific onset side effects where i can barely stay awake, be tortured with head aches and sweat buckets.
So why am i doing this? Just for a few weeks holiday where i can feel (and i quote) "myself"
Has or does anyone else enter into this vicious circle?
I do the cycling thing, i have been on Sertraline for a while and im presently in my "drop it and move on" phase where i have tapered my does down over a couple weeks and i am now medication free.
So how do i feel?
Well, my most hated side effect is gone, i don't feel like a stranger in my own mind... Depersonalisation is just so draining for me hence i tend to give my meds up just so i can feel "myself" again.
However i also accept that the intrusive thoughts are in the post and on the way, the fear will creep back in and the panic attacks will soon cripple me and i will be sobbing to my doctor that i need my script back and i will once again go through the horrific onset side effects where i can barely stay awake, be tortured with head aches and sweat buckets.
So why am i doing this? Just for a few weeks holiday where i can feel (and i quote) "myself"
Has or does anyone else enter into this vicious circle?