ThomasinaMac
27-05-06, 11:28
Hi everyone, I have just been looking at the other posts on this forum and I am glad that I have found you all.
I am a 36 year old Management Secretary for a children's charity, and have been suffering from a recurrence of anxiety and depression since February of this year.
My big anxiety is health, earlier on this year I was convinced that I had mouth cancer; together with stress over my job, and my wedding later this year, all hell broke loose. I had panic attacks and chronic insomnia because I was convinced that there was something wrong with me. My GP put me on Citalopram and I started to feel better slowly. I went and has a session with a Human Givens therapist and I also went to see a hypnotherapist. I had a full set of blood tests which came back negative, so why am I still worrying about things?
Last week I started to have problems sleeping, and I have convinced myself that I have cancer in my nose. I have a sore spot inside my nose either side of the septum, just inside my nostrils. My GP took a swab and it came back negative for infections, so I should hve been ok. Slowly, I have been winding myself up about this to the point where I am beginning to feel really anxious, and sometimes really really scared.
I am getting married in 6 weeks, this should be a happy time for me. Everything for the wedding is sorted, so there shouldn't be anything for me to stress over. I can't get the negative thoughts out of my mind, I have this "something bad always happens when I try and be happy" mentality which I really want to shake. I lie awake in the early hours convinced that there is something horribly wrong with me and that I am going to die, and I find it all really exhausting and terrifying. I also feel guilty because I am offloading this on my partner, who is absolutely wonderful, but he feels helpless as there is nothing he can do. Somethimes I think I am going mental.
I am going to the doctor on Wednesday, as she said before that if I get worried she will refer me to a specialist, and then I think "is there something she's not telling me?" and it all goes downhill from there. Its all become a big self-defeating thing because I want to know that there is nothing wrong with me, but then I am scared that there might be. How stupid is that?
Anyhow, enough of my rambling. I hope that I haven't bored you too much. Any opinions or thoughts would be nice.
Take care
Tamsin
I am a 36 year old Management Secretary for a children's charity, and have been suffering from a recurrence of anxiety and depression since February of this year.
My big anxiety is health, earlier on this year I was convinced that I had mouth cancer; together with stress over my job, and my wedding later this year, all hell broke loose. I had panic attacks and chronic insomnia because I was convinced that there was something wrong with me. My GP put me on Citalopram and I started to feel better slowly. I went and has a session with a Human Givens therapist and I also went to see a hypnotherapist. I had a full set of blood tests which came back negative, so why am I still worrying about things?
Last week I started to have problems sleeping, and I have convinced myself that I have cancer in my nose. I have a sore spot inside my nose either side of the septum, just inside my nostrils. My GP took a swab and it came back negative for infections, so I should hve been ok. Slowly, I have been winding myself up about this to the point where I am beginning to feel really anxious, and sometimes really really scared.
I am getting married in 6 weeks, this should be a happy time for me. Everything for the wedding is sorted, so there shouldn't be anything for me to stress over. I can't get the negative thoughts out of my mind, I have this "something bad always happens when I try and be happy" mentality which I really want to shake. I lie awake in the early hours convinced that there is something horribly wrong with me and that I am going to die, and I find it all really exhausting and terrifying. I also feel guilty because I am offloading this on my partner, who is absolutely wonderful, but he feels helpless as there is nothing he can do. Somethimes I think I am going mental.
I am going to the doctor on Wednesday, as she said before that if I get worried she will refer me to a specialist, and then I think "is there something she's not telling me?" and it all goes downhill from there. Its all become a big self-defeating thing because I want to know that there is nothing wrong with me, but then I am scared that there might be. How stupid is that?
Anyhow, enough of my rambling. I hope that I haven't bored you too much. Any opinions or thoughts would be nice.
Take care
Tamsin