swgrl09
09-11-11, 12:52
Hi everybody, probably noticed that I have been posting a lot lately. It is getting to the holidays, and also the time of year last year where my mom was diagnosed with cancer and not long after (a month post-diagnosis) passed away. She had neuroendocrine carcinoma, and tomorrow is national neuroendocrine cancer awareness day, so I have been doing a lot to get the word out.
The hard thing is that my anxiety, especially health anxiety, is sky-rocketing now.:weep: I have been seeing a counselor, and I know that my anxiety gets worse because not only was it traumatic to go through, but my HA distracts me from dealing with the anger/sadness of losing my mom. It feels like a lose-lose situation, I can either be super anxious and feel crazy or I have to deal with an overwhelming grief. Just sucky time of year, I guess.
I just feel badly because its hard on my boyfriend, who I live with. He is so good and knows why I am getting more anxious, but just this morning I freaked about moles that he has not had checked. He was patient with me, which was good, but I am just going crazy and also worrying about my own health. I had all my checkups this year, im 23, and just fighting a tough cold but I am freaking out like crazy. It sucks.
Anyway I just wanted to vent, I know everybody is going throuhg a hard time here and I hope we all get through the holidays well. Thanks for all of your support.
The hard thing is that my anxiety, especially health anxiety, is sky-rocketing now.:weep: I have been seeing a counselor, and I know that my anxiety gets worse because not only was it traumatic to go through, but my HA distracts me from dealing with the anger/sadness of losing my mom. It feels like a lose-lose situation, I can either be super anxious and feel crazy or I have to deal with an overwhelming grief. Just sucky time of year, I guess.
I just feel badly because its hard on my boyfriend, who I live with. He is so good and knows why I am getting more anxious, but just this morning I freaked about moles that he has not had checked. He was patient with me, which was good, but I am just going crazy and also worrying about my own health. I had all my checkups this year, im 23, and just fighting a tough cold but I am freaking out like crazy. It sucks.
Anyway I just wanted to vent, I know everybody is going throuhg a hard time here and I hope we all get through the holidays well. Thanks for all of your support.