weevil
10-11-11, 14:01
I can't ever relax, I'm overly irritable, jumpy and completely worried all the time. I'm lucky I can sleep otherwise I'd have to spend more time away of my existence, waking up is horrible though. I think I can sleep because how I feel has me depressed though which isn't a great thing.
I'm afraid to go out, especially if that's going to need me to interact with people. But I don't have a sanctuary where I live either. Exactly what I'm afraid of outside I'm just as afraid of inside. This place isn't home, I have a housemate I don't know well and his girlfriend is staying over. I put a lot into where I live and am not comfortable with people I don't know well. I can't believe I forced myself to do this again earlier in the year. I'm moving out soon, I have to since I'm planning to leave town but I'm too terrified to even sort anything out to do with that. I'm probably moving back home with my Mum for a while. I was there for a week but had to come back for an appointment, I feel awful back here though. I feel like my nerves are shot and I can't cope with anything, it's all too much.
I'm afraid to go out, especially if that's going to need me to interact with people. But I don't have a sanctuary where I live either. Exactly what I'm afraid of outside I'm just as afraid of inside. This place isn't home, I have a housemate I don't know well and his girlfriend is staying over. I put a lot into where I live and am not comfortable with people I don't know well. I can't believe I forced myself to do this again earlier in the year. I'm moving out soon, I have to since I'm planning to leave town but I'm too terrified to even sort anything out to do with that. I'm probably moving back home with my Mum for a while. I was there for a week but had to come back for an appointment, I feel awful back here though. I feel like my nerves are shot and I can't cope with anything, it's all too much.