phillip
12-11-11, 14:56
Hi My name is Phil and for the last 8 months I have been suffering with bad panic attacks . It started in april when whilst in work I had a random attack out of the blue all day suffering a sore shoulder I had conviced myself it was a blood clot and that I was going to die then later in the afternoon I started to hyperventiate and could not catch my breath I then got my work collegue to phone for an ambulance as my whole body was shaking and I could not catch my breath.
A short while later the ambulance turned up and after sitting inside it for 5 minutes he told me I was having a painc attack and to calm down. I left the ambulance in the carpark of work and returned saying I had to leave now as Im going for tests at the hospital then returned to work the following day making up an excuse that it was asthma attack so ot to lose face.
Well this has started up a whole new beast now and nearly everyday I am thinking that something is wrong with me which leads on to panic attacks if I have a pain in my arm leg stomach head etc I am fighting my own mind
all the time telling myself nothing is wrong. but always losing and having an attack. I have seen two doctors the first who descriped some tablets called citalopram and 10 tblets of diazepam to take the edge of then when I returned to get a reapeat perscription I saw another doctor who did not want me to take the tablet route and has put me onto C.B.T course which starts on the 18th of this month. Excuse the speeling mistakes etc as my hands can not keep up with my typing as this is the first time outside of my family I have told anyone and no one understands me and thinks I just need to stop etc and crack on.
So to explain then I am 28 years old young should be healthy etc and this has come on and compltley ruined my life at the moment I wake up each day wondering if i am going to have a good day or a bad day any quite time I have is fighting my brain from wondering off to thinking something is wrong.
So basically nothing has worked as of yet And I am not usually one to seek help I havent had a sick day in over two years etc.. but I feel like im losing control now and just want my life back .
thanks for reading sorry it is a bit long but it,s nice to get it of my chest
Phil
A short while later the ambulance turned up and after sitting inside it for 5 minutes he told me I was having a painc attack and to calm down. I left the ambulance in the carpark of work and returned saying I had to leave now as Im going for tests at the hospital then returned to work the following day making up an excuse that it was asthma attack so ot to lose face.
Well this has started up a whole new beast now and nearly everyday I am thinking that something is wrong with me which leads on to panic attacks if I have a pain in my arm leg stomach head etc I am fighting my own mind
all the time telling myself nothing is wrong. but always losing and having an attack. I have seen two doctors the first who descriped some tablets called citalopram and 10 tblets of diazepam to take the edge of then when I returned to get a reapeat perscription I saw another doctor who did not want me to take the tablet route and has put me onto C.B.T course which starts on the 18th of this month. Excuse the speeling mistakes etc as my hands can not keep up with my typing as this is the first time outside of my family I have told anyone and no one understands me and thinks I just need to stop etc and crack on.
So to explain then I am 28 years old young should be healthy etc and this has come on and compltley ruined my life at the moment I wake up each day wondering if i am going to have a good day or a bad day any quite time I have is fighting my brain from wondering off to thinking something is wrong.
So basically nothing has worked as of yet And I am not usually one to seek help I havent had a sick day in over two years etc.. but I feel like im losing control now and just want my life back .
thanks for reading sorry it is a bit long but it,s nice to get it of my chest
Phil