tamlara
13-11-11, 12:23
Hi i'm new here. Just spent a week with real bad panic attacks and found this site.I am 49 and live with my 81 year old mother.i have a son and three wonderful grandchildren who i see daily.i have suffered from bouts of depression since i started school at 5 years of age,but no one knew. i just thought i did not want to be away from my mum. i got better and every time there was a bad patch in my life i would feel it,but do nothing and eventually it went.i have now been diagnosed with rheumatoid artheritis.the first tablets i was allergic to and then they put me on Hydroxychloriquine and i started getting panic attacks and being up for hours in the night so depressed i did not know what to do or where to turn.i came off the tablets after 4 weeks and now a few weeks later i am still suffering.the panic attacks since finding this site have actually got a lot better.all down to the breathing excercise and reading other peoples problems,which showed me i had been getting similar things happen to me.However i can't look back at any thing from my past good or bad without feeling total depression and panicy feelings,but these memories keep coming in to my head.i also pace a lot as i can't sit still when im like it,and i need to pass water every few mins.How do i deal with the depression? please.