LittleMissPanicky
13-11-11, 12:41
Ok guys bare with me hear this may turn out to be a bit of an essay, but i'm feeling sooo bad at the moment and don't know where to turn.
This episode of HA started back in March, i had worries about my bowels, after having tests which were clear i thought my anxiety would calm down, but no !
I have now developed a full blown phobia over my bowels, scared of going to the loo incase all is not right, then last week the worst happened and i had blood when i wiped my bottom. After a frantic dash to my doctor she said there was a tare there, but of course i'm now back to the what ifs again.
I wake in the morning shaking , thoughts racing, convinced i have the dreaded 'C' and nothing that anybody says can convince me otherwise.
I have recently been put on venlafaxine and i take 75mg in the morning along with 50mg of seroquel.
I went to see my doctor again last week in tears and she bascially said she dosn't know what to do anymore and was going to chase up the referall to the cmht. She cannot change my tablets or the dosage now until i see somebody more qualified !! So now ifeel stuck in this constant state of panic, not knowing when i will see a psych , somedays i feel soo loely and although i wouldn't do it, i look at my tablets and think it would be soo easy just to take them and make these feelings stop.
I have a gorgeous 9 year old son who I absolutle adore , but feel i am letting him down, i just want to be a good mum to him. xxx
Sorry to ramble guys , but feel in a really dark place at the moment , any words of encouragement or advice would be much appreciated xxxxx
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p.s i have now been on the venlafaxine for 6 weeks xxx
This episode of HA started back in March, i had worries about my bowels, after having tests which were clear i thought my anxiety would calm down, but no !
I have now developed a full blown phobia over my bowels, scared of going to the loo incase all is not right, then last week the worst happened and i had blood when i wiped my bottom. After a frantic dash to my doctor she said there was a tare there, but of course i'm now back to the what ifs again.
I wake in the morning shaking , thoughts racing, convinced i have the dreaded 'C' and nothing that anybody says can convince me otherwise.
I have recently been put on venlafaxine and i take 75mg in the morning along with 50mg of seroquel.
I went to see my doctor again last week in tears and she bascially said she dosn't know what to do anymore and was going to chase up the referall to the cmht. She cannot change my tablets or the dosage now until i see somebody more qualified !! So now ifeel stuck in this constant state of panic, not knowing when i will see a psych , somedays i feel soo loely and although i wouldn't do it, i look at my tablets and think it would be soo easy just to take them and make these feelings stop.
I have a gorgeous 9 year old son who I absolutle adore , but feel i am letting him down, i just want to be a good mum to him. xxx
Sorry to ramble guys , but feel in a really dark place at the moment , any words of encouragement or advice would be much appreciated xxxxx
---------- Post added at 12:41 ---------- Previous post was at 12:40 ----------
p.s i have now been on the venlafaxine for 6 weeks xxx