cathy s
28-05-06, 20:48
Have been a member for a while but haven't written here yet.
I am 34, I have a husband and two children. I am a homemaker!
I have been dealing with anxiety for about 10 years. Nine months ago I had a big anxious episode (agraphobic, food phobic, completely stressed after completing a course, had been anxious about various different health stuff for some time - the world seemed to be closing in on me) this led me to start taking Citalopram, which was the hardest thing I have ever done as I was also anxious about taking any medication. I kept thinking it was going to bring on another mental disorder! I was on 20mg, now on 10 ( comming off very slowly!!!)
I had to know what led me to this point, and was extreemly scared that I could get so bad, I wanted to know why so I could fix it.
I learned that managing anxiety by aviodance and reasurance from others was making things worse. I hadn't been relaxing properly, or doing things I enjoyed (didn't even know what I enjoyed!) and was completely exhasted from being constantly anxious.
Currently trying to use CBT to deal with anxiety, I have lots of self help books, but what I have found most helpfull is contact with a proper therapist. He costs £100 per hour so I have only spoken to him for an hour and 1/2 an hour a month later. (am on NHS waiting list but have to wait 1 1/2 years!!!)
At the moment I am out & about regularly with no probs usually, unless I'm feeling ill or tired. I am often worried about something or other still.
I am determined to live a life that is carefree, to accept anxiety as a normal emotion & not get anxious about being anxious!
I am trying to change my thought processes to be healthier and happier. I've made a good start. It's annoying when you relapse abit! I always get scared that I will go back to being terrified & anxiety consumed as I was those months ago.
I know it will take alot of bravery and persistance to change those ingrained thoughts and feelings, but I will do it!!!!!
Finding this site has been a fantastic support. To hear others situations, some the same as mine, is very comforting. I always use this site as my first port of call as a support when I'm in need. Or when I want to add something positive, as thats the way forward isn't it!
Thank you to all who run this site.
I am 34, I have a husband and two children. I am a homemaker!
I have been dealing with anxiety for about 10 years. Nine months ago I had a big anxious episode (agraphobic, food phobic, completely stressed after completing a course, had been anxious about various different health stuff for some time - the world seemed to be closing in on me) this led me to start taking Citalopram, which was the hardest thing I have ever done as I was also anxious about taking any medication. I kept thinking it was going to bring on another mental disorder! I was on 20mg, now on 10 ( comming off very slowly!!!)
I had to know what led me to this point, and was extreemly scared that I could get so bad, I wanted to know why so I could fix it.
I learned that managing anxiety by aviodance and reasurance from others was making things worse. I hadn't been relaxing properly, or doing things I enjoyed (didn't even know what I enjoyed!) and was completely exhasted from being constantly anxious.
Currently trying to use CBT to deal with anxiety, I have lots of self help books, but what I have found most helpfull is contact with a proper therapist. He costs £100 per hour so I have only spoken to him for an hour and 1/2 an hour a month later. (am on NHS waiting list but have to wait 1 1/2 years!!!)
At the moment I am out & about regularly with no probs usually, unless I'm feeling ill or tired. I am often worried about something or other still.
I am determined to live a life that is carefree, to accept anxiety as a normal emotion & not get anxious about being anxious!
I am trying to change my thought processes to be healthier and happier. I've made a good start. It's annoying when you relapse abit! I always get scared that I will go back to being terrified & anxiety consumed as I was those months ago.
I know it will take alot of bravery and persistance to change those ingrained thoughts and feelings, but I will do it!!!!!
Finding this site has been a fantastic support. To hear others situations, some the same as mine, is very comforting. I always use this site as my first port of call as a support when I'm in need. Or when I want to add something positive, as thats the way forward isn't it!
Thank you to all who run this site.