Anxious_gal
18-11-11, 05:49
Well I was doing okish but I am struggling so bad, so bad I am almost in denial because how bad I am scares me and makes my anxiety worse!
I have done a few things , like meet my friends etc.. But I have not gone to town 100% alone in a long time. If I am meeting someone I can do ok.
I have had a few panic attacks which really set me back.
I am some what depressed but when I meet my friends I am sooo happy so I think I have situational depression.
I am avoiding the hell out of everything, I am trying to do that CBT online book that is posted here, CB4 panic , I am awful with names.
I'm trying to do my Louise Hay positive thinking stuff too.
But I just I dunno, I am not doing enough to get better.
I do have plans to meet friends soon, so I hope that might help motivate me.
My weight gain isn't going well as I stopped putting in the effort to eat, but I ate two pizzas today lol so better than nothing I guess.
I failed going to town this week alone , I had a shower , did my hair, got dressed up and panicked! Then I got sad because I am soo bored at home.
My confidence is so bad :( My friends laugh things I say, I wasn't trying to be funny, just being my self, and I'm oh I am making my friends happy.
It's like I can't accept that people like me..
My family most of the time are not nice to me and point out everything thats wrong with me so ya I got me some issues
I know I just need practice, get out every day, do CBT, talk to people etc...
But I can't seem to keep it up.
I am not the person I want to be, you know?
The anxiety is part of me but it's not who I am, It's like I have gotten lost some how.
I am good at talking about what I should be doing,but I really suck at the doing part.
I hope by writing this it will help some how..
I have done a few things , like meet my friends etc.. But I have not gone to town 100% alone in a long time. If I am meeting someone I can do ok.
I have had a few panic attacks which really set me back.
I am some what depressed but when I meet my friends I am sooo happy so I think I have situational depression.
I am avoiding the hell out of everything, I am trying to do that CBT online book that is posted here, CB4 panic , I am awful with names.
I'm trying to do my Louise Hay positive thinking stuff too.
But I just I dunno, I am not doing enough to get better.
I do have plans to meet friends soon, so I hope that might help motivate me.
My weight gain isn't going well as I stopped putting in the effort to eat, but I ate two pizzas today lol so better than nothing I guess.
I failed going to town this week alone , I had a shower , did my hair, got dressed up and panicked! Then I got sad because I am soo bored at home.
My confidence is so bad :( My friends laugh things I say, I wasn't trying to be funny, just being my self, and I'm oh I am making my friends happy.
It's like I can't accept that people like me..
My family most of the time are not nice to me and point out everything thats wrong with me so ya I got me some issues
I know I just need practice, get out every day, do CBT, talk to people etc...
But I can't seem to keep it up.
I am not the person I want to be, you know?
The anxiety is part of me but it's not who I am, It's like I have gotten lost some how.
I am good at talking about what I should be doing,but I really suck at the doing part.
I hope by writing this it will help some how..